Thursday, December 29, 2005

Celebrate our day (^_^)

It’s been a long time I’m not entry here rite. These previous days I’m totally busy with my registration for my last semester ;-) obvious hopes that this my last sem in jengka hehehe…So I finally got everything on my list when my shopping time last week. (my mom looks sumting on me (^_^) yay!!) Seriously it was soo happy moment. On 25th Christmas day to be exact, my syg and i went back jengka by bus. Opss...yesterday was our special day, third anniversary supposedly to say kut (“,) we all just having lunch jer but we got sum planning on this coming Saturday sounds like to celebrate we used to say. Cant wait anymore..My syg started busy wanna us ‘layan’ baik punya cilok!! Yet I big surprised coz he actually not certainly enjoy malay film..hmm maybe Aflin Shauqi is the most reason makes his mind changes, I guess laa. Lalala…Happy New Year!! Welcome 2006!!

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

lalala...

Hmm..nothing much to say, put something new here
songs by,
+ A4- meteor garden II theme song (i'm addict wif this movie (",))
+ Neil Sedeka- you mean everything to me (ohh..my dad's fav song
+ abg reached kl at 8.30 pm just now, he went by bus wif 2 kids (anak kakngah) hehehe..so sweet (@_@)
+ to yatie,
"..ade hikmah di sebalik aper yang berlaku..be strong ok?? remember..ko still ade aus, aku n apiz tau.."
Okies, i try to sleep early and want to have a such beautiful time waking up next day..yay me!! Nite..(^_^)

My final exam result???

I look around..i just wanna smile..yay!! What for?? Last nite i was sitting in front pc..keep view my uitm website which was soo traffic (^_^) wooo...
abg: syg try laa..dun give up..u know..try and error!!
me: well..i try laa nie,bosan seh..nanti syg bgtau,sabaq..sabaq!!
At last, at 11.pm i can open that website wif a big nervous..
Alhamdullilah, everything was fine. The result not very good actually. But overall i'm very soo grateful..Thanks Allah!!
I cant wait for tomorrow;
@ it's shopping time+cinema..going to kl
@ we will have gathering (whole my family)
@ meet abg

Love this song?? hmm...

You're beautiful

My life is brilliant,
My life is brilliant,
My love is pure,
I saw an angel
Of that i`m sure,
She smiled at me on the subway,
She was with another man,
But i won`t lose no sleep on that
`Cause i`ve got plan..

You`re beautiful,You`re beautiful.
You`re beautiful it`s true..
I saw your face in a crowded place
And i don`t know what to do,
`Cause i`ll never be with you..

Yes she caught my eye,
As we walked on by..
She could see me from my face that i was
Flying high,
And i don`t think that i`ll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will
last till the end..

You`re beautiful,You`re beautiful.
You`re beautiful it`s true..
I saw your face in a crowded place
And i don`t know what to do..
`Cause i`ll never be with you,
You`re beautiful,You`re beautiful,
You`re beautiful it`s true..
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that i should be with you,
But it`s time to face the truth
I will never be with you

p/s: i'm not totally finished my duty (packing my stuff..oppss!!!) tonite lalala...('_') mom and abg dont worry..almost finished!!!How bout u my dear..hehehe.....

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Remind me about what??

I just want to say this to a good friend of mine.

Remember,
I'll be there when you're down.
I am always here when you're lonely.
I know that you're not in a good mood right now.
Someone has hurt your feelings, I guess.
But hey, just forget it. It's the nature of life.
Friends do come and go. Just let them be.
It's hard to take care of everybody's feelings.
You said you're a good pretender.
Well, how about emotionally ? ;P
Don't let other people affects your life.
If they want you, okay "Step on fren..".
If they don't, fine kthxbye.
You can walk by yourself. No problem.
Because we will never leave you. ;)

I love peanut butter and bread. The simplicity of it makes it so irresistable and so heavenly you just can't have only one. Huuuu. You can tell that I've been eating a lot of it since yesterday when I bought bread and peanut butter out of boredom.
I had such a tough time waking up this morning @_@ but somehow I managed so yay me! I was planning to sleep early last night (well, earlier than usual) after I updated my blog but, yerp, you guessed it - I didn't. Ended up sleeping around 3 a.m. Why? Cuz I was watching cinemax while 'sms'ing him...it's 3am and im not yet asleep and not even pack my bags yet. lalala

So..this morning,
mom: nanie dont u pack yr things already??
me: oppss..okay mak i will packing tonite..takde moodlaa!
mom: make
sure buat!! (uishh..)
abg: syg dah abis pack barang? abg
ptg nie..esok gi kl dah..kemas betul2 jangan ade yang tertinggal (sound's familiar laa;-P)
me: abg,syg kemas tonite.

Hmm..everbody be concerned on me?? just because of packing things or..?? hmm..i'm thinking..

Dancing on the Edge of Reality...

A world of dreams and visions,
Existing in places that dance upon the edge of reality!
Moments shared in a timeless eternity
Where the heart can waltz upon the winds of tomorrows.
Velvet soft whispers fall like kisses from the heavens,
Caresses lighter than the butterfly embracing the rose!
This the world on the edge of reality!
Soft the sounds found here,
Serenades as endless as the waves upon the seas,
Blissful place of peace whose treasures tell of tales beyond time.
For here in this place,
Dancing of the edge of reality,
A world is found in a smile,
A lifetime is known in a kiss.
And even forever passes all to quickly,
When time is measured by the beating of your heart


Ahh.. is this call reality?.. when we have to face sumthing in which unfavorable for us.. when we have to play a win-lose game.. when sumtimes people use to forgone sumthing/sumone they used to luv.. am wondering today.. am i missing sumthing here.. yeah i mean for the last 342 days before... (perhaps) Nah!! or maybe i should return to my resolution checklist last year.. shall check it back..but i know tht i've sumthing.. sumthing i wont lost for tonite.... am happy with tht.. this is the last.. yes i mean THE LAST!!! (shall i made a promise here??) Thanks for the dance.. =) ( haha am i dancing?? yeah am dancing in my heart.. maybe..) Only ALLAH knows the best!!

Am Thinking of this few lines..

Allah didnt promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day,comfort for the tears, and light for the day. BE TOUGH!

P/s: i'm just received a sms from my sayang.. a bit from it, "..Dkt dr pdNy agar hati syg mjd tenang (",).." Subhanallah..alhamdulillah..well, finally i burst into tears!! (our top secret..i guess) Thanks abg for that msg..mmuahh!! 4 days to go...

Sunday, December 18, 2005

Complicated...

I miss him so much!! there still have 7 days to go... uwaaa!!! ;-(
Be patient nanie... steady and relax okay nanie...what to do!!

Saturday, December 17, 2005

Best banana split!! Yummy....

Banana split..hmm so delicious!! Makan sekali tak puas...mom nak lagi bleh??
Ermm..today nothing special..just my banana split hehehe...
But..i miss bangat sama abg ;-(
O
ppss.. my sayang on da way to melaka ikut paklong dr singapore. Take care ya!!
Next week i will going to KL apelagi..it's shopping time hehehe..

@ hand bag
@ sandle (want a simple one for my kuliah?? hope so..hehe..)
@ novels > new by Tony Parsons and Norhayati Ibrahim (cant wait;-p)
@ some make up stuff (oucchh!! i need ka??)
@ blouse (yet i dont have any purple color in my wardrobe ;-/)

>okies, miss my bucyuk ;-* going to bed ahhh....

Friday, December 16, 2005

Aiyoyo!!!

Hmm..tomorrow my parent come back from out station..very pleased wif that news!! Same wif ibu (my syg's mom) back from malacca(kampung) hehehe...on da other hand, we all tak lagi dapat telefon (gayut??;-)) lelamer as previous days nie..wah lawak plus smart plus naughty jugak yerk abg nie..ibu takde mulaler nak kol kwn sana..kwn sini yer..ooo abg nak kena yer??hehehe..(well i'm just kidding!!). I'm having fever laa now ;-/ (ade hikmahnye)
Hmm..i'm telling u my closed fren already got a job..i'm very happy wif that yatie!!
That msg(sms) exactly camnie laa <'Nani, aku dh dpt keje kat audit firm at tmn tun, KL..doakan aku tau'..
Hopefully u will comfortable wif a new environment yatie!! Be a smart and good worker..cayok! cayok!
My final result will come out on 21st Dec, i dont feel anything yet..
Just now i was talking wif my sayang about our t-shirt(business) i quite nervous but i hope our dreams not just a dream, InsyaAllah!!

...@>----miss him :-*



A Shoulder To Cry On ;-)

Life is full of lots of up and downs,
but the distance feels further,
when it's headed for the ground,
and there's nothing more painful,
than to let your feeling take,
you down.

It's so hard to know,
the way you feel inside,
when there's many thoughts,
and feeling that you hide,
but you might feel better,
if you let me walk with you,
by your side,

And when you need,
A shoulder to cry on,
when you need,
a friend to rely on,
and when the whole world is gone,
you won't be alone,
cause i'll be there,
i'll be your shoulder to cry on,
i'll be there,
i'll be yur friend to rely on,
when the whole world is gone,
you won't be alone cause i'll be there,

All of the times,
when everything is wrong,
and you're feeling like,
there's no use going on,
you can't give it up,
i'll help you work it out,
and carry on,

Side by side,
with you till the end,
i'll always be the one to firmly hold your hand,
no matter what there said or done,
our love will always continue on,

Everyone need a shoulder to cry on,
everyone need a friend to rely on,
when the whole world is gone,
you won't be alone,
cause i'll be there,
i'll be your shoulder to cry on,
i'll be there,
i'll be your friend to rely on,
when the whole world is gone
you won't be alone,
cause i'll be there,
you have my shoulder to cry on,
i'll be there
i'll be the one to rely on,
when the whole world is gone,
you won't be alone,
cause i'll be there,

And when the whole world is gone,
you always have my shoulder to cry on.


Sunday, December 11, 2005

Soul??

It's very hard to think sumting that far from the beginning. When i been hurt wif sumone i totally want to cry. So sad if this happened. My sayang had called me just now mayb he is being worried when i gave him sum weird sms, well i guess laa.. Thanks dear!! I will show to 'you' someday..my sayang and i will be somebody, InsyaAllah! Am i rite dear..we will try our best!!

Sunday, December 04, 2005

Memories..

I just come back from Kuantan. Actually for my old neighbour's wedding.There's a most thing i want to tell..hehehe..i met sumone that i never meet about 6 years. My old schoolmate, Siti Nor Diyana..she's now more looks lady and pretty hehehe..we met at Megamall. Terkezut!! Say about MEMORY sum will definite MEMORY as the treasure house of the mind where in the monuments there of are kept and preserved..
I was been in Kuantan for many years...where's my childhood be hehe..So u cant imagine how much memories that i built. Terlampau byk...sweet..bitter!! My love at first sight,(my syg u already know hehe..) my first experience to be prefect..involved in seni silat tournaments!! ahh...banyak lagilaa..Teringat when i was form 3 (Tengku Afzan girls school), kiteorang buat party kat T.C (Teluk Cempedak) jalan kaki sambil climb Bukit Pelindung (dpn sek je) memang superb laa!!=)
Oopss says bout TC we all sempat laypark semalam..Enjoy eating McD and ice cream! Ramai jugak orang..i guess becos now is school holiday season..so no wonder laa. We stayed at Vistana hotel semalam it's quite reasonable price..
Hmm..tomorrow ayah (my syg's dad) going to Mecca..hopefully everything will going smoothly..InsyaAllah!! Sumer sedara my sayang datang ari ini sebab buat kenduri doa selamat.."darling, u are a good son u know.." (sumting dat i keep behind this hehehe)

About KUANTAN..(local food)
@ Abah will never miss to buy his KARIPAP kat Taman Gelora...(wajib beli dtg kuantan) siap makcik tu dah kenal abah("org pindh mersing dh dtg")...stall die kat tp play ground memang famouslaa karipap die tu...mesti org ramai queue ..aku pelik jugak..tgk karipap die takla lawa mane pun hehehe..tp isi sedap agaknye!!
@ Mom plak will never miss to have mee kari kat Tanah Putih near sg Pahang's bridge...dulu stall mee kari nie kat belkang Pej Islam Pahang alaa sblh mahkamah tu!!
@ Aku will never miss restaurant Taj and laksa Penang Zul blkg pasar(Ocean) pergh!!! ;-P

@ My sayang and I have our precious history dot dot dot...;-)

So okaylaa.. i'm going to bed...GOOD NITE --<@

Thursday, December 01, 2005

Only time....


Who can say
where the road goes
where the day flows
- only time
And who can say
if your love grows
as your heart chose
- only time Who can say

why your heart sighs
as your love flies
- only time
And who can say
why your heart cries
when your love dies
- only time
Who can say
when the roads meet
that they might be
in your heart
And who can say
when the day sleeps
if the night keeps all your heart
Night keeps all your heart
Who can say
if your love grows
as your heart chose
- only time
And who can say
where the road goes
where the day flows
- only time

Who knows - only time

I could be listening to this song for the whole day.. This song is so self spirit for me.. it is a hearsay on myself about times.. about my sacred life.. about heart feels... It is all about life.. I dunno why lately i was so overthinked.. so concern of LIFE matter.. maybe it just apart of growing and maturity process.. Owh im so morbid at times.. As for me.. we cant really determined wat our life gonna be next..

The road is broad open and we will keep on going.. walking for miles.. but we dunno when will we stop.. where will be our last destination... and times would keep on going as we keep on walking untill we ended this life.. and untill then time would stop for us.. but may be not yet for others... I shall be thankful for the braveness.. for the strength given as to go on this Life.. yet i am still walking in this shallow street strolling around.. and excitedly waiting for surprises each day wit no fear.. Yess Life is always full of surprises event.. Far apart still looking for one to be hold together.. but sumtime this loneliness make me realise the beauties of life.. to enjoy of all i have.. to grab all the chances given.. As i know im not alone.. This emptiness had actually gives me spaces to learn more... to know more and to feel more of the great touches of my only creator Allah.. And it let me think over times..

oF an opinion... a heart..and a fren..?


It happen when a fren of mine admiring a guy and luving him with her whole heart (or shall i conceive as passioanately admires him) Sum of my fren and i were about giving our personal opinion on her private matter.. It was apart of my attention when i read one of sumone write up about " The one with past..present or future.." It was quoted wit sum important thing for unmarried people.. Few question tht we should ask about..

When you say you love somebody, is it because of the past or the future?
Do you hold on to the past? Or would you rather think of the future?

Yes it caught my attention when it comes to the 1st question as i did asked myself a few times.. when i luv sumone.. Trying to think over why did i luv sumone.. is it becos of his past or his future.. Personally for myself.. i dont much bother about his past life.. Even if he was a sleazeball before but if he had change.. It is ok.. Do focus on today.. who is he today.. If he had change.. i dont mind.. becos for me wat he did before may be just a silly mistake.. everybody does..and just let it be a shadow of yesterday.. The most important is the present day where we live today.. and summore the future we are heading to.. No matter how bad the things before or the person has been.. But things can change.. maybe for sum it requires time to learn and to have improvement..

But as long as u think it really worth for you.. Just go for it.. Selagi ade daya.. Selagi ade upaya.. Just put ur best.. Yess.. it is true when we really in luv wit a person.. or we're so mad of sumthing or sumone.. u would just wanna put ur best effort in winning.. But it is all God will.. I do pray the best for u.. This is just sum scratches ideas tht we could shares.. i just hope tht u're enjoying ur life onwards.. :) my sayang, u are my life!!







All My Way...=)

My way- Frank sinatra
And now, the end is here
And so I face the final curtain
My friend, I'll say it clear
I'll state my case, of which I'm certain
I've lived a life that's full
I traveled each and ev'ry highway
And more, much more than this, I did it my way

Regrets, I've had a few
But then again, too few to mention
I did what I had to do
and saw it through without exemption
I planned each charted course
each careful step along the byway
And more, much more than this, I did it my way
Yes, there were times,
I'm sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew
But through it all, when there was doubt
I ate it up and spit it out
I faced it alland I stood tall and did it my way
I've loved, I've laughed and cried
I've had my fill, my share of losing
And now, as tears subside, I find it all so amusing
To think I did all thatAnd may
I say, not in a shy way
"Oh, no, oh, no, not me, I did it my way"
For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught
To say the things he truly feels
and not the words of one who kneels
The record shows I took the blows
and did it my way.. Yes, it was my way


Noted this is an oldie song by Frank Sinatra.. but it still be one of my favorite on list.. Those that remind me about being myself.. Yeah.. after so many ups and down been passing thru.. of all my way to here.. Im sure everyone got their singular path.. it of cos cant be the same.. Maybe sum people might says.. "Too bad if u think u r too good.." But hey, come on!!.. im no here for a big talking but personally i dont think it's sumthing bad to feel good about ourself.. sumthing worth rewarding.. just for the sake of motivation and self-help!! ;)

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Life??

Alhamdulillah aku balik umah ari tu dengan selamat...very happy actually. Aku lepak kat Jb seketika wif my sayang. My last paper was terrible...seday sangat sebab tak dapat nak buat. So aku kuar awal, supposed abis kul 5.15 pm but aku kuar 4.30pm. Thanks my frens yati,assif and aus sebab hantar aku kat terminal..we have a wonderful moment. Segala yang dirancang my sayang berjln dengan lancar...=) So last day tu we all layan Harry Potter kat CS before bertolak ke Mersing hantar aku..wah abg drive ke mersing? hehehe....
we all sampai dalam kul 6.30pm, so aku bawak ronda bandar mersing dulu...sek aku, hospital mom's work, tepi laut and macam2 lagi laaa. Before this, mase mula2 datang skudai..chewah bukan main seronok lagi abg tunjuk sek ren die..sek men..satu taman round...bilik kerja ayah(utm) sampai ke taman ex2 girlfren die sekali=)
Thanks mom sebab dah ready for our dinner. Actually both of us terasa terharu sangat kan abang... got blessing from my parents! Thanks so much....we love u all!!

Saturday, November 26, 2005

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Satu paper lagi yahoo!!!

Today aku ade paper chemistry…well overall quite okaylaa. Ntah macammane ari nie aku overslept…giler betul!! Roomate aku yang selama nie tak penah bangun lewat dah ukir sejarah baru dalam hidupnye bersama aku..hehehe..So pe lagi subuh gajah la kami berdua kul 7.00 am. Balik daripada exam trus sambung packing barang, well including my pc. My dad datang pick barang aku and my sayang’s things. Finally my dad came with my little bro, iwan…almost 3.30 pm. Aku terus tertanya-tanya mengapa itu mesti berlaku pada diriku…just forget bout it laa.
Aku masih ade satu paper lagi iaitu paper biology (my favorite subject my mother said hahaha) There’s one thing that make me worry..pasal balik nie..hopefully everything become smoothly....everybody’s got something they have to leave behind....

Friday, November 18, 2005

Bila habis exam nie!!

Sehingga hari nie aku dah ambil 2 paper, iaitu Biologi dan Internet Programming. So far both of them actually quite okey, but I don’t know why I cant do well. I asked myself, why?? Whatever is, ape jua yang akan aku dapat aku akan terima dengan pasrah…eee cehh..seday jer bunyinyer…=) so now aku hanya boleh bergantung pada another paper biologi and chemistry. This is only my chance!!
Well, tadi pagi aku temankan my sayang settlekan kotak-kotak die nak diposkan. Semua kotak (3 kotak) it take cost about RM400 something. Haiya…aku masa tu dah pandang die semacam, mane taknyer…out of our budget!! We only spend around RM200 for that. So expensive…at last he decides nak tumpang two more kotak kt abah (my dad). My lucky laa my parents volunteer nk pick all my stuff in here.. alhamdulillah. Jadi settle laa satu masalah. Die pun dah balik KL semula petang tadi nak lepak dengan abg Yus. Dah lamer jugak tak jumpe dengan abg Yus (handle pusat tuition family my sayang but now dah kerja somewhere in Klang) Miss my sayang so much..jadilaa semalam whole day teman aku study. Thanks dear!! Malam nie study sorang semula…seday pulak tibe-tibe sebab takde die. This is my first experience study for final without him!! Memang tragic jer..hehehe..relax la brader!!(calm down myself) Abis paper kan jumpe semula....=) Eii..cepatlah abis paper…hehehehe….
Semalam before met him aku makan malam dengan yati. Well dah lamer giler kami tak jumpe since cuti raye tu. Biler dah jumpe tu, macam-macam la cerita yang keluar. Aku tengok yati dah kurus sikit, ker mate aku nie salah tengok. Hopefully ko bahagia dengan ape yang ko cari selama ini. Dia tanye aku nak keje samer tak cuti nie,aku terlupa yang die actually dah final sem. Nampak gayanyer sem depan aku dah kehilangan seorang teman gaduh,nangis,suka,ketawa,jerit,duka,jalan2…byk lagi! She’s really meant to me…Well we all dah macam adik-beradik. Teringat pulak dua tahun yang lepas, yati ajak aku and my sayang gi Melaka jumpe member die. Masa tu nampak kesungguhan die sampai nak sponsor kami everything. Hehehe…bile dah sampai Melaka at last we all bermalam kat umah mak sedara my sayang nak save budget yati. Kelakar memori kat sana..ade suka..ade duka jugak..but..thanks Yati for everything u do for me!
Alaa…pasal gambar tak entry-entry lagi…balik sweet home nantilaa. Wokey..nak sambung study!! Selamat…….

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Makna Aidilfitri

Wow..ni baru seronot..all my family berkumpul di rumah walaupun dah masuk raye yang ke-3. Raye ke-3 my dad ajak kiteorang ke JB because kak ida my sis inlaw tak penah datang ke JB lagi.Abah bawak ronda Stulang, Danga Bay.. So terus laa beraya rumah saudara mara kat Kg Melayu Majidee, Tmn U..ade sorang sepupu lecturer kat UTM. Ingatkan nak gi beraya umah my sayang sekali..tp not right time laa abg. =) Sabar yer my sayang....
Well, my brother bawak citer LOST semua episode season 1...apalagi, aku and my sis tak abis-abis depan pc dah addict dengan citer tu...best giler!! My bro download dari somewhere (open source). Nak burn cd nak bg my sayang tapi berat sangat sebab versi dvd. Dulu ade kuar kat astro tapi aku mana ader kat rumah. Pastu skrang nie kuar kat channel 8 malam Isnin. Hehehe..aku dah katam dah citer tu. Memang best ar!! Tak sabar nak tengok season 2 tgh penggambaran. I thought nak cari DVD citer tu tapi belum dilancarkan lagi pun. Bulan Disember nie baru nak dilancarkan di Amerika. Kat Malaysia lambat lagilaa...Citer LOST ni sapu bersih Academy Award baru-baru nie..kalahkan drama siri desperate wife...caya laa!!
Alamak my final just around da corner...malasla nak balik kampus coz i’m still in raya mood....



Saturday, November 05, 2005

Hari Raya Aidilfitri

Selamat Hari Raya semua..all my frens...my relatives…my family and my sayang ;-) Aku and family pagi raye sembahyang sunat kat masjid Sri Lalang. Before that, macam biasalah malam raye tu aku and my mom siapkan juadah tradisi kami untuk pagi raye..iaitu lontong, kuah kacang, kari ayam and last rendang daging. Tak berapa best sangat sebab akak and abang masing-masing first raye kat umah mentua dieorang. So kami yang tinggal nie masak sikt jer sbb after sembahyang sunat raye trus shoot ke Segamat kampung belah my dad. First rumah kiteorang pegi rumah mak utih. We had lunch there. Kebetulan tok chik pun ade same kat situ. My cousin yang paling rapat, Wahidah (anak mak utih) sekarang blaja kat UM amik Syariah and Usuluddin. Sebaya aku jer. Dulu Wahi (panggilan aku pada die) sekolah kat Sek Men Agama Johor Bahru.
Kalau kami berjumpa memang tak ingat dunia laa..borak sampai tak sedar pak ngah family pun datang jugak. Cerita pasal raye nie tak sah kalau tak citer pasal duit raye kan. Eii..tak malu jugak yer dah besar pun nak kumpul duit raye jugak. Seronok laa dapat duit raye. Kalau dalam keluarga saper yang besar sikit lagi banyak dapat duit raye..hehehe…
My sayang tahun ni beraya kat Skudai (home) jer..normally balik kg kat Melaka..kebetulan ayah (my sayang’s dad) tak berapa sihat baru kuar hospital. Tapi ramai jugak saudara mara yang datang kan abg. Maaf Zahir & Batin semua....

Thursday, October 27, 2005

Pergi Tak Kembali

It's been quite a long time i'm not en3 this blog..previously...last week my uncle pass away..Al-fatihah..on 24th of October, ari isnin pukul 5.00pm. At that time aku and my syg tgh ronda2 KLCC...konon2 kiteorg nak balik campus ptg tu. Tup2 tgh duduk borak2 sambil tgk orang dari kebudayaan Malaysia buat perfomanced sempena ari raye, my dad send sms told me that they all want to shoot Ipoh pasal tu. So apelagi, tak jadilaa nak balik campus ptg tu. My sayang suggest bukak puase same2 baru aku balik semula Shah Alam umah akak aku. We all finally berbuka di KFC jer memandangkan masing2 dah mengidam ayam goreng..both of us dah lamer tak pekena KFC. Pelik jugak masa tu aku tak menangis pun. Maybe jgk sbb my syg pandai melayan aku jd aku mcm terlupe hal tu.We all sempat tangkap gambar lagi. Nanti i'll post that photo here. Before that day, ape yang aku planning menjadi...so my sayang berbuka puase kat umah akak. Then malam tu jugak aku and my sis (anak2 n husband Xikut) tumpang abg aku nyer kete. We all then jumpe my parents kat R&R Tapah..trus aku and my sis naik kete my dad plak..we all convoi ke Ipoh. Bila dah sampai umah uncle baru rase nak menangis coz blum kebumikan lagi. Esok pagi after kebumikan arwah uncle we all balik ke Shah Alam and had fast breaking together with whole my family. Next day on Wed barulaa aku and my sayang pulang campus tu pun before naik bus we all join my parents shopping at Sogo and Jln Masjid India...my dad nak cari sampin and my mom nak cari tudung. Aku apelagi...ambil kesemptan laa..cari brooch raye =) yang kelakar tu my sayang and my dad...chewah!! Hati risau jugak.. walaupun dah byk kali my sayang jumpe my dad tapi tak penah shopping samer just makan2 jer. Nampaknyer..alhamdulillah...hehehe..terrorlaa abg!! Caiyok!! Aterwards my dad sent us to Pekeliling. We arrived jengka 6.00p.m to be axact laa. Trus bukak puase dulu baru blik campus. Tu laa yang telah terjadi minggu lepas.. Kerja belambak menanti aku..mcmaner nie...nasiblaa:-(

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

Amik MUET??

This morning, aku dah ambil muet test..well overall it’s quite okaylaa question “the way to make an inpact on Malaysia”…aku jadi candidate B..alhamdulillah. My sayang candidate C =) kiteorg really lucky sebab segroup itupun kerana abah tolong hantarkan borang muet aku and my sayang by hand kat pejabat pendidikan Pahang dulu. Thanks abah!! Kiteorg kena buat muet kat Sek Men Keb Jengka Pusat. Nak dijadikan citer we all pegi lima orang naik van, aku, my sayang, ira, norin and wani..but takde sorang pun tau sekolah tu kat mana..dahlaa aku bg excuss kat my sayang (pasal kecian tgk muka seposen die) die lambat sampai kat depan tempat kiteorg tunggu van, lambat 20 minutes. Aku relax jer sbb dah kenal sgt dgn my sayang but four of them dah buat muka geram+marah+tak puas hati kat aku…ade ke patut aku?(sbb bf aku yer korang??). At last we all sampai jugak sekolah tu..and yang kelakarnye kiteorang yang paling awal sampai…my sayang kirenye tarik nafas lega laa sbb dieorang tak bleh nak blame pasai lambat datang tadi. Aku dapat music and entertainment. For my first beginning memang cam blur jer..pastu aku rase more confidence laa…pakai goreng jer point. Sumer aku bantai;

i. Music- perfomanced by Siti Nurhaliza at Albert hall in London..bla..bla..
ii. Theater- Boys and girls in film festival (aku hentam jer) bla..bla...bla…
iii. Dance-traditional and modern (makyung,zapin….bla…bla..bla..)

My sayang dapat ‘science and technology’…hehehe…aku tengok die pun lebih kurang aku ajer…goreng pun sodap (dipetik kata2 abg tadi ekekeke..) =) Abis jer muet tadi aku dapat sms from mom. She and my dad on the way to Ipoh to visit my uncle(makbesar) warded in CCU Hospital Ipoh. Aku doakan everything will be going better. This my uncle is my mom’s eldest brother. Aku planning nak balik kl on 20th nie. My sayang balik awal dari aku, by tomorrow. I thought nak balik sekali tapi aku ade dua test on Thursday tu. He has something important to do earlier. It’s okay, he will fetch me on that day and insyaAllah we all dah planning bukak puasa same2 at my sis place. Aku nak masak,dah lamer tak masak,rindunyee!!!(masak utk my sayang?? hehehe..seronotnye!!!) at this moment, aku tengok v-clip song everything you want – Vertical Horizon…so cool…

Thursday, October 13, 2005

Besday my sayang

Abg,
Happy Birthday sweet 21st...
semoga segala aper yang diimpikan menjadi realiti ;-)
Syg doakan abg sentiasa dalam peliharaan Allah, dipanjangkan umur dan dimurahi rezeki selalu...
Frankly speaking, aku rase cam excited giler tgu birthday my sayang nie..everything going smoothly when i called him sharp 12.00 a.m. We had chit chat a lil' bit time and at last he gave me sms, he said, "TQ syg.Tharu abg.Muah!" at that moment aku plak yang rase nak nangis dalam gembira..hehehe..tapi ade sumting bad happened. And it was difficult to tell. Ape2pun aku dah selesaikannye. Abg, ur very important person in my life!! Loves take times ;-) Sayang bgt samer abg!!

Sunday, October 09, 2005

ReSPeCT KeR??

Today i'm really sick.. camner nak respect org lain kalau orang tu tak respect kat kite? Aku benar-benar nak marah betul...nasib baik laa time tgh bulan posa nie..my sayang and aku jual tshirt tau..but we all tak plak cakap "wajib" beli..ntah camner plak jadi satu masalah bg kami...but mostly pada my sayang laa...sebab die yang kena. Aduh...sudah terjatuh ditimpa tangga plak lagi..dah lah ade masalah...masalah lain plak timbul.. I dunno laa... At this moment I hope this case can be settle profesionally. Tu laa...sian sangat!! Niat my sayang baik2 dah jadi lain plak.What can I say... abg kena banyakkan bersabar...kalau boleh sayang nak samer2 tegakkan kebenaran nie..we already discussed about this last nite..and hopefully u got a gut to sort out this problem..Ahh berat memandang...berat lagi bahu yang dipikul.
It's quite changed laa time aku masa part 1 dulu..very big different laa..soal respect senior nie! Kiteorg nie memang takut dulu kat senior2 nie...bukan tahap hormat jer...but nowadays...fuhh...dengan senior sendiri pun tak kenal ini kan nak respect tu..cant say laa. Abang, tabahkan hati yer..

Thursday, October 06, 2005

Ramadhan Al-Mubarak…ye ye..

Hye..selamat datang bulan Ramadhan A-Mubarak seronotnyer hehehe…well today dah first Ramadhan. Alhamdulillah semalam sempatla aku menunaikan solat terawih. Kat tempat aku nie buat 8 rakaat jer. Teringat plak mak kat umah. Sorry laa mum…:-) cant accompany u as usual..kat umah aku wat 20 rakaat. I really miss u mum!! Apatah lagi rindu nak bersahur beramai2 dgn family. Rindu bangat saat itu. Normally, kalau kat umah kiteorg bangun sahur kul 5.00 a.m. Aku plak biaselaa kenala awal dr org lain nak prepare meals kan. Well, in this semester my final exam will begin after 3rd hari raye..sian laa..tak bleh la nak raya sakan2. Biskut raye pun rasenye cam takde chance nak buat…but aku rase maybe aku nak jugak wat 2 jenis biskut raye kirenye these biskut raye memang wajiblaa dalam family aku..iaitu cheese cake and Japanese honey chocolate. Aku penah buat business kuih raye nie mase abis form 5 and abis buat pra sains dulu. Memang penat tapi seronot…duit masuk poket hehehe..best tau baked biskut raye nie. At this moment I hope my sayang punye problem will settle tomorrow. What his problem cant say laa hehehe..secret maa!! Tapi abg jgn risau, syg tetap sokong segala keputusan abg. Ape yang berlaku tu ade hikmahnyer..percayalaa abg..take time okay!!Darling, u knows me very well rite!! Wah…wah.. my sayang pukul 3.50 a.m. dah kejutkan aku bangun sahur pagi tadi. Pelik jugak..selalunye nak kejutkan my sayang nie bgn tido payah sket.. tapi tadi die kejut aku plak..rupe2nye setelah disiasat my sayang tak tido..main game pc. Ayooo…. Hmm.. so okaylaa..selamat berpuase ek!! Mase nielah kite nak berebut pahala..dan same2 tingkatkan lagi keimanan kite sempena bulan yang barakah nie. Adios.

Friday, September 30, 2005

Sweet Home maaa....

Haiya...ini ari aku dah berade kat umah laa. Sampai around 4.30 a.m and my parents fetched me at r&r. Aku memang nak balik this weekend. Aku ingat nak ponteng jer kelas csc tu...but biler pikir balik ari isnin pun aku dah ponteng klas die pasal balik dgn my syg gi kl pastu takde tiket..so batalkan saje niat jahat aku. Dalam mase dalam kelas csc tu aku dapat msg dr my sayang (that time memang die kat kl dah) mintak tolong aku print out gambr t-shirt...ouchh...that time aku trus tgk jam..sempat ker kalau nak catch bus kul 4.30??
So..at last aku decide balik kul 5.30...my sayang punye pasal berkorban aper sajer. Cari2 cc kat luar...tutup pulak.memang mencabar keimanan aku btul coz that time jgk i'm fasting!! Nak tak nak aku kena gi cc yang jauh sket...i have to rite??
Satu hal lagi...dapat server yang lembab...nasib baik kebetulan my sayang bg msg and tenangkan aku...mase tu plak dah kul 5.15 pm. So abis je print all that stuff aku trus rush ke bus station...memang penat woo...mcm aku masuk lumbe jalan kaki jer hehehe....
Sampai jer pekeliling trus naik lrt ke plaza rakyat...coz dah janji dgn my sayang kat ctu. Try call him but tak dapat2...memang risau bangat gua!!
Sampai jer pudu aku trus tunggu area bsn(atm mechine) adelaa 20 minutes tibe2 he was standing besides me sambil senyum..aku rase happy semacam jer..nak peluk2 jer!! oppsss..;-) then we spent time together and ehemm..ehemm..hehehe...rahsia laa!!
Aku tgh demam sbnrnyer...memetik kata my sayang just now"balik rumah jer syg demam...nape demam rindu abg yer?" hahaha....
A'aa kan balik umah jer selalu demam. Tapi memang semalam dalam bus sejuk sgt2 sampai aku tak bleh nak wat pe2!! Dalam bus main msg dengan my sayang tangan nie menggeletar nak tulis..badan nie menggigil...i forgot to bring my sweater!! So pity laaa...
Anyway thanks darling at last tunggu jgk syg sampai naik bus smlm...:-) luv u so much...

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

One Sweet Day…=)

Lately aku mengalami stress yang melampau… I felt like I can’t breathe... I cant stand either... Keje dan komitmen as a student membuatkan aku rasa tension sangat-sangat! Selain itu, aku dan my sayang buat business t-shirt untuk course kiteorg. Alhamdulillah even though there’s some complicated problem... but both of us can over face it. Teringat pulak aku dan my sayang buat business otak2 JB masa kristal last year. Memang best giler laa... walaupun untungnye tak banyak but we got experience yang tak ternilai harganye...shared problem. Okeylaa berbalik citer aku yang tadi..pasai aku tension sangat-sangat aku pun bgtau my sayang yang aku nak gi balik umah my sis kat Shah Alam...mintak pendapat die sbbnyer hari tu dah hari sabtu pukul 2.50 ptg. Tak keje giler ker aku that moment?? Obviously, ingatkan aku kena lecture dgn die rupe-rupenye die tak bagi balik kl sorang2 so die nak temankan... siap cakap apsal tak cakap awal2...so we all bleh balik pagi2 tadi..how lucky me.. Fuhh...lega hatiku!! Thanks my dear...
Kiteorg spent time sama2, release tension sama2, ronda2 kl sama2...”mcm2 lagi”. Yang seronot tu on Sunday nite we all join family akak aku jalan2 One Utama Shopping Mall... actually because of my sayang tak penah jejak lagi so apelagi, akak and abg ipar aku bawak la kiteorg just window shopping bg merealisasikan impian my hubby...hehehe...abg, jangan mare yer... nanti kena jual:-) But actually that’s no point... yang best tu tengok my sayang jage and melayan sara and syura anak2 akak aku. Yang kelakar tu akak aku and her husband bg tugasan tak rasmi kt kiteorg jd baby sitter. Mase budak2 tu kecik lagi dulu, abg tolak stroll budak2 tu... skrang dah besar sket tukang dukung plak...hehehe...kelakarla abg syg nie!!
Dalam mase kiteorg spent time tu, we all banyak berbincang pasal macam2 bende. Ade tu pasal belajar, keje and ade jugak pasal hubungan kami. Kadang-kadang biaselah kes2 cemburu berlaku, macam die jealous aku baik dgn guy lain..and aku pun penah jugakla tercemburu..but when i think back...rase cam kelakarla plak. My sayang ni memang seorang kawan yang pandai menghargai sebuah persahabatan. Jadinye, i dont think that I should be jealous if he going out wif someone i mean his frens (gals)...yeah..cuti..balik sweet home..jumpe old fren...same2 sekolah dulu, makan2..kalau camtu it’s fine darling, jgn bermadah kasih sudahlaa... cume sumtimes tu tertanye jugak laa...biasela mesti nak tau kan boyfren kite...sayang maaa.... Thanks abg, because tak sorok2 dgn syg... kite dah janji rite di antara satu sama lain. So conclusionnyer aku tak kisahlaa die nak kuar makan2...dgn kawan (gal) lame die... not worth rite...hahahaha...okies laa.. rindu bangat kat abg!!!!

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Menanti Sebuah Jawaban


Lagu soundtrack filem Ungu Violet...

Aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu
Dan aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu
seiring jejak kakiku bergetarAku tak terpagut oleh cintamu
Menelusup hariku dengan harapan
Namun kau masih terdiam membisu

Sepenuhnya aku ingin memelukmu
Mendekap penuh harapan tuk mencintaimu
Setulusnya aku akan terus menunggu
Menanti sebuah jawaban tuk memilikimu

Betapa pilunya rindu menusuk jiwaku
Semoga kau tau isi hatiku
Dan seiring waktu yg terus berputar
Aku masih terhanyut dalam mimpiku



Monday, September 19, 2005

Hadapi dengan senyuman..

Hadapi dengan senyuman
semua yang terjadi biar terjadi
hadapi dengan tenang jiwa
semua kan baik-baik saja

Bila ketetapan TUHAN
sudah ditetapkan tetaplah sudah
tak akan yang bisa merubah
dan takkan bisa berubah

Relakan la saja ini
bahwa semua yang terbaik
terbaik untuk kita semua
menyerahlah untuk MENANG

Hye..aku letak this lyric by DEWA group...bukan aper, lirik nie sebenarnye sangat bermakna dalam lifestyle kite. Aku rasa setiap orang tentu penah lalui semua nie kan...
It's depends laa on type your problem..but it's still there rite...how to overcome tu terpulang pada setiap individu. Tapi to me..kite jangan sesekali putus asa!! Once you dah give up...so that's will analysed you are so weak person. Remember..life is beautiful. Dont you ever waste it!! Bila ketemua segala dugaan that mean you sangat bertuah sbnrnyer..diuji oleh Allah untuk menilai semula segala perbuatan kite..lastly..jangan lupe bersyukur!! Pikirkan..ade orang lain yang lebih kecewa..yang lebih menderita..yang lebih kekurangan dari kite...that's it!! Just be yourself.. OKIES!!

Friday, September 09, 2005

Sebenarnyer.....

Aku dan si die telah melalui satu perjalanan yang sukar...We been together almost 3 years..Dalam mase yang panjang tu..macam-macam telah kami alami dan harungi bersama..we have shared sweet and bitter moments..and i dont want to lose him just because a stupid mistake happened between us...arghhh!!!
My sayang..i'm very sorry for everything that i've done to you. Ape yang dah berlaku tu biarlah menjadi kenagan pahit bagi kite..tak perlulah kite meletakkan kesalahan tu di bahu sesiapa..Kite pun dah spent time bincangkan masalah kite dan mase tu nanie rase abang dah lakukan dgn baik. To me, i'm always try to give you the best in every ways. So, i hope we have to give and take to each other...
Kadang-kadang kesilapan yang berlaku itu mematangkan lagi hubungan kami..Setiap orangkan penah melakukan kesilapan..why not we give them a chance to make something getting better? Am i rite...
So anyway...thanks my dear. I never regret to choose you to be my lover. I always love you..hehehe...
A new day has come...




Thursday, September 08, 2005

SeGaLa Nya Tentang CINTA...

CINTA Tak Kenal Siapa...
CINTA tak Kenal usia...
CINTA tak kenal pangkat,darJat atau rupa...
CINTA Berputik Di MaNa2..
DaN..
Di SiNi SegaLaNya TeNtang CINTA...
CINTA seJati TiDak PerNah Mati...
CINTA aguNg BeRseMi SeLaManya Tapi...

CINTA itu satu anugeRaH TuHaN,Untuk Kita MeLeNGkapi antara satu sama lain,untuk
kita menghargai perasaan pasangan kita,untuk kita menyambung generasi keturunan
kita,untuk kita menilai erti kasih sayang.Maka cinta yang tumbuh,haruslah di
belai,di bajai,di sirami agar tumbuhnya tetap segar.

CINTA itu umpama pekebun bunga yang indah.kelopak warnanya adalah cahaya,hijau
daun nya adalah keikhlasan yang tulus,harum bau nya adalah ketenangan.
keasyikan adalah alunan rindu yang memukau,sepanjang usia ciptaan tuhan.
Dan kita mahu terus duduk di situ.kita mahu terus bermanja di lautan
yang mekar,hingga kita insan yang lemah dan lalai ini kadang terlupa
dengan hukum kejadian.sesuatu yang baik akan menjadi buruk
dan bunga juga mebjadi racun yang berbisa.Duri nya mampu melukakan
hingga jauh ke dasar hati,kerana yang indah itu hanya pekebun bunga.


CINTA adalah hadiah.lakaran dari hati manusia.cinta adalah kesabaran,cinta
adalah kemuliaan.cinta tidak lahir dalam bisikan cemburu.cinta tidak hidup dalam
lingkungan keangkuhan kerana cinta bukan untuk di megahkan.cinta adalah kesopanan
dan penghormatan,cinta tidak mengubah manusia dan bukan alasan untuk
mencari biadari dalam diri sendiri.

CINTA juga tidak selalunya indah.cinta penuh dugaan.ia menguji
kekuatan cinta.melengkapkan episod kisah berkasih dan sayang.
cinta yang hadir selepas hujan lebih indah.Derai nya lebih mengasyikan
kerana kita ingin memuja pelangi petang,kita juga sanggup bermandi
hujan tika hangat panas mentari dan menghadiahkan kita semangat kerana
cinta itu saling melengkapi.

CINTA sejati tidak pernah mati.cinta agung bersemi selamanya,tetapi..
nafsu dapat melayukan nya.cinta adalah ikatan seumur hidup.tetapi..
ego dan cemburu mampu meleraikan nya.

Namun kita hanya insan biasa yang masih mengharap.
kira nya dalam hujan renyai,dalam hangat mentari,dalam harum bunga,
dalam indah pelangi,masih ada secebis harapan untuk kita.

CINTA Tak Kenal Siapa...
CINTA tak Kenal usia...
CINTA tak kenal pangkat,darJat atau rupa...
CINTA Berputik Di MaNa2..
DaN..
Di SiNi SegaLaNya TeNtang CINTA...
CINTA seJati TiDak PerNah Mati...
CINTA aguNg BeRseMi SeLaManya Tapi...

CINTA itu satu anugeRaH TuHaN,Untuk Kita MeLeNGkapi antara satu sama lain,untuk
kita menghargai perasaan pasangan kita,untuk kita menyambung generasi keturunan
kita,untuk kita menilai erti kasih sayang.Maka cinta yang tumbuh,haruslah di
belai,di bajai,di sirami agar tumbuhnya tetap segar.

CINTA itu umpama pekebun bunga yang indah.kelopak warnanya adalah cahaya,hijau
daun nya adalah keikhlasan yang tulus,harum bau nya adalah ketenangan.
keasyikan adalah alunan rindu yang memukau,sepanjang usia ciptaan tuhan.
Dan kita mahu terus duduk di situ.kita mahu terus bermanja di lautan
yang mekar,hingga kita insan yang lemah dan lalai ini kadang terlupa
dengan hukum kejadian.sesuatu yang baik akan menjadi buruk
dan bunga juga mebjadi racun yang berbisa.Duri nya mampu melukakan
hingga jauh ke dasar hati,kerana yang indah itu hanya pekebun bunga.


CINTA adalah hadiah.lakaran dari hati manusia.cinta adalah kesabaran,cinta
adalah kemuliaan.cinta tidak lahir dalam bisikan cemburu.cinta tidak hidup dalam
lingkungan keangkuhan kerana cinta bukan untuk di megahkan.cinta adalah kesopanan
dan penghormatan,cinta tidak mengubah manusia dan bukan alasan untuk
mencari biadari dalam diri sendiri.

CINTA juga tidak selalunya indah.cinta penuh dugaan.ia menguji
kekuatan cinta.melengkapkan episod kisah berkasih dan sayang.
cinta yang hadir selepas hujan lebih indah.Derai nya lebih mengasyikan
kerana kita ingin memuja pelangi petang,kita juga sanggup bermandi
hujan tika hangat panas mentari dan menghadiahkan kita semangat kerana
cinta itu saling melengkapi.

CINTA sejati tidak pernah mati.cinta agung bersemi selamanya,tetapi..
nafsu dapat melayukan nya.cinta adalah ikatan seumur hidup.tetapi..
ego dan cemburu mampu meleraikan nya.

Namun kita hanya insan biasa yang masih mengharap.
kira nya dalam hujan renyai,dalam hangat mentari,dalam harum bunga,
dalam indah pelangi,masih ada secebis harapan untuk kita.

Warna-warni kehidupan..

Kelmarin..
Warna-warna duka..
Terpamer di wajah..Suram bagai langsung tidak bermaya..
Cuba disorok namun kalah jua..

Hari ini..
Dihiasi warna-warna ceria..
Bersama terukir indah senyuman di bibir..
Tanda hati mekar berbunga..

Esok..
Kita masih belum tahu..
Hitam putih sebuah kehidupan..
Yang serba berkemungkinan..


::Apa agaknya kemungkinan utk esok hari..?Moga kita sentiasa bersedia,redha dengan takdir dan ketentuanNya..::

Bisikan hatiku...

Setiap hari kumohon
Agar Kau sentiasa
Memberiku ketenangan dalam hati... kekuatan
Menempuh segala dugaan yang mencabar ini
Pasti punya ertinya
Engkau beriku harapan
Menjawab segala persoalan
Hadapi semua dengan tenang

Dengan merasa kesyukuran
Ku doa Kau selalu
Mengawasai gerak-geriku
Berkatilah ku penuh rahmat dari Mu

Oh Tuhan terangkan hati dalam sanubariku
Oh Tuhan ku berserah segalanya kepadamu
Agar jiwaku tenang dengan bimbingan Mu selalu

Ada kalanya ku merasa hidup ini seperti kaca
Jikalau tidak bersabar
Hancur berderailah akhirnya
Tabahkanlah hatiku
Melalui semua itu... Ooh...
Kuatkanlah
Cekalkanlah diriku

Thursday, July 28, 2005

Kebosanan

Bile orang merepek pasal kebosanan memang membosankan jiwa..minda..zahir..fizikal..ahh!! Aku dah check ptptn tadi, and memang aper yang aku duga terjadi.Aku dapat RM500 jer. Benganglaa..tapi nak wat cam ner kan. Memang dah ditetapkan aku dapat banyak tu jer.. bersyukurlaa beb..
Tibe-tibe rasa homesick plak. Ntah apsal aku ni huh??? Okies..aku dalam minggu sibuk skit. Aku kena wat satu project biology. My thesis is about soil. So kenalah amik sample soil kat dalam hutan, ladang sayur, ladang buah and logi...eiii...bucuk...
Anyway keylaa..

Monday, July 25, 2005

BESDAY AKU haaahaaahaaa...

Thanks laa pada kwn2..
yang masih ingatkan besday aku nie..hehehe ;-) kalau nak ikutkan besday ini hanyalah sekadar hari peringatan peningkatan usia ajer.. Aku rasa besday nie sangat bermakna dalam hidup aku..Cuma sambut atau tak tu terpulang laa pada pandangan individu masing-masing.

thanks yati ..
made a nice surprised party for me last night ..huhuhu..even I lost my AF3 concert just coz to get in your problem stuff..kononnye laaa..rupe-rupenye..ade party.

Thanks my family..
hehe..especially my parents and iya,iwan..walaupun malam baru wish seday laa tp nasib baik ingat!! Tiada yang lebih bermakna melainkan kasih sayang mak and abah..I love u all!!

And last but not least..thanks to my sayang..
u know..even that moment very shortly but syg sangat terharu!! I’m so speechless..your chocolate cake..hehehe..sedap bangat sih!! Cam nak lagi bleh tak? ;-P hehehe…time kacih for everything u do for me..u make me believe in love..my lonely no more ;-)

Dah masuk new sem..ahhaa!!

Hai..dah lamer tak aku tak en3 blog aku nie. Terasa rindu lah plak..hehehe. Aku walau macammana pun tetap aku.Aku dah masuk sem baru.Hahaha..rasa seronk ker jd super senior? Ntahlaa..biasa jer lagipun aku sekarang nie dalam adaptation dengan suasana baru. Aku rasa lain macam sikit laa..u know aku terasa diri aku berada di keliling orang-orang asing tapi pada hakikatnye mereka semua adalah kenalan aku belaka. Sejak dulu aku tidak pernah tinggal dengan orang yang aku kenal. I mean clearly..aku terasa ketidakselesaan tapi, maybe ade hikmahnyer kut..Aku tak tau lagi ape yang akan berlaku pada aku sem nie. Terasa diri sangat kerdil berbanding orang lain. Rasa rendah diri ni tibe-tibe menguasai diri aku. Aku rasa susah nak bernafas..Kadang-kadang kite terpakse berlagak tabah..apatah lagi di depan orang yang mempercayai kite. Apa sahaja yang kite buat menjadi perbualan orang..menjadi santapan mata yang memandang.Ahh…kenapa dengan aku nie? Aku belum lagi menerima keadaan aku sekarang kut?? But one thing..i feel a little relief because aku masih lagi mempunyai kekuatan yang amat mengajar aku erti kehidupan yang sederhana. My sayang, you are my strength when I was weak..you are my voice when I could not speak..you are my eyes when I could not see..thanks of your kindness..and really appreciate it very much!!

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

Reunion kecil-kecilan...


Huhuhu..membe closed mase form 4 and form 5. From left, fahim, Apis Suib, and Ajai. All them sekarang tgh blaja lagi cam aku. Cume mereka nie sumer power-power beb!! fahim now as a medic student in Bandung...indo maa! apis suib as an engineering student in UM and lastly ajai as a dentistry student in UM jugak..me? i'm okey guys..well gud laks in your future undertakings sei...=) well actually this picture has taken by me mase we all wat reunion kecik..so makan2 sebelum we all balik university masing-masing!! Sedih jugak sebab tak jumpe membe yang lain-lain..semua ade hal tersendiri..well hopefully our friendship will never fade yaa!! Opss lupe nak cakap..dieorang nie sumer tak vote Mawi jugak..so tak tergolong dalam 'tsumawi' tuh..kih kih kih....caya laa guys!!

Monday, July 04, 2005

Come back to normal?? Huh??

Uwa...aku kena balik jengka semula..uwa....hati ini berat untuk melangkah pergi hahaha..ape taknyer aku nie dah rasa syok lepak kat umah. tapi what to do..Student tetap student rite?? Aku nie suka blaja masalahnyer..but u know aku geram btul lah..aku tak bleh nak daftar kursus aku. Pelik lah..aku and my sayang mesti ade problem dengan pendaftaran almaklumlah dulu kami tukar course samer2 jadi sekarang masih ade problem lagi. Hah!! Sem depan aku kena carry satu paper lagi..ayoo..boring btul..kekadang terasa cam menyesal ajer aku tangguhkan paper bio nie. Maybe ade hikmah di sebalik keputusan nie. ok..malasnyer nak packing barang. My sayang dah bising2 sebab tak kemas lagi..huhuhu...die pun suka last minute jugak..sound org plak ek..=) oklah my dear..i will packing as soon as possible yer..

Friday, July 01, 2005

Aku kagum betul...


The Lord of the Rings well this filem aku dah katam 5 kali tau....but I still want to watch more. Just now I made up again, because citer ni ditayangkan dalam HBO Astro..so ape lagi..tengoklah lagi. I know ramai giler org di luar sana suka bangat dgn movie nie. Skrang nie i heard ade wat trilogy movie nie. Well...aku dah lama tak tgk movie. The last movie tgk dengan nisa kat alor setaq citer XXX 2. Mesti nisa tak kan lupa this memory coz i'm the first person be her company to watch movie..wow!! You know..berciter pasal movie nie..aku first time tengok movie masa umur 3 taun citer cartoon disney. Aku pun bukannye ingat tapi mak and abah citerlah.hahaha!! Well i really lucky coz being in a harmony family. Skrang nie tgh rindu nak tgk wayang dgn my sayang. Rindu sangat-sangat! The first movie tgk dengan my sayang citer XXX kt Terminal One, Seremban. Masa tu kiteorang hanya kawan biasa ajer. Okies...peace!!

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

Is it important to be an honesty person?
Alohaa..pelik ker dengan tajuk aku ari nie? Aku rasa kejujuran itu sangat penting in our life. Tak kira pada sesiapa pun kita mesti bersikap jujur. Itu yang mesti kita tanam dalam setiap individu. Semua orang tak nak ditipu, diperdaya, dikhianati dan macam-macam lagi..tapi apakah ini dinamakan dah lumrah alam? Bukan mudah mencari teman untuk meluahkan perasaan. Bukan semua sudi mendengar. Bukan semua suka mendengar. Kadang-kadang kerana mahu mempertahankan ego sendiri perasaan orang lain terabai. Apa yang pasti emosi itu seharusnya seiring dengan tindakan yang rasional. Rasa sedih sekiranya kepercayaan yang kita beri pada seseorang disalahgunakan. Bukan senang kita nak beri kepercayaan itu. Well, bunyi cam aku frust ajer..hehehe! I'm okey laa. Aku sebenarnye tension skit lately nie..dah lah tu aku sekarang nie tengah demam. Uwaa... Ape-apepun yang berlaku pada diri aku nie adalah salah satu dugaan dan ujian supaya aku menjadi lebih tabah dan matang =) ye ker?? Of course lah.. Aku nie walaupun seorang gadis yang genit lagi comel (perasan la tu..kih kih kih) tapi mempunyai jiwa yang besar tau. I am strong person tau.. kata orang tu 'give and take'. Ntahlah.. orang kata jika kita dapat menerima kesalahan orang lain, itu melambangkan kita adalah orang yang paling bahagia, orang yang paling baik hati, orang yang matang, orang yang beriman, orang yang berjaya, orang yang pemurah, dan orang yang paling realistik dalam kehidupannya. Ingin daku menyusun nada..ingin hati melukis kata..menghias senandung dalam hati sukma..Anyway, kat bawah nie ade aku letak lagu J-Lo yang aku ske sangat untuk my sayang aku. Aku harap my sayang mengerti yer...luv u bitss!!



JENNIFER LOPEZ - Hold You Down ft. Fat Joe

(Jen)
Now you been holding me down mm
For such a long time now
From back then to now in my story
Straight from the hood
You've always been there for me

And you had my back when they
Back when everybody said I wasn't anything
It was you that kept me holding on
No matter what was going on
So whatever you need I got you yaa
(Joe)
Reminiscing that 6 train from way back
Now it's skyblue Phantoms and stretch Maybacks
For sweepin them floors in them Bronx apartments
Mira esta que ta on the red carpet
When Pun died you was the first to call me
But you was there for me
Whatever you need, I be there for you
never told you
Crack, I got ya back, for real, true story

(Jen)
Now my loyalty will always be
With you if you just promise me
That you'll stay real just like you are
Cuz baby you don't have to change no...

[chorus]
You dont know how much you mean to me
Whenever your down you know that you can lean on me
No matter the situation, boy I'm gon' hold you down

You dont know how much you mean to me
Whenever your down you know that you can lean on me
No matter the situation, girl I'm gon' hold you down

(Fat Joe)
Yo, 2005, Rakim and Jodey Withley
Watch me paint a picture so perfect
Quite possibly
The realest frechest from BX to Southbeach
I'mma always hold you down, girl
You can count on me

(Jen)
So remember this whenever I call
We go back too far, we been through it all
Even though, we haven't spoken so long
Ain't nothing change, not a damn thing baby


(Jen)
Now my loyalty will always be
With you if you just promise me
That you'll stay real just like you are
Cuz baby you don't have to change no...

[chorus]
You dont know how much you mean to me
Whenever your down you know that you can lean on me
No matter the situation, boy I'm gon' hold you down

You dont know how much you mean to me
Whenever your down you know that you can lean on me
No matter the situation, girl I'm gon' hold you down

(Fat Joe)
Like green is to autum somethings must stay
This industry
Yeah my father made me this way
Get between me and J-Lo
I simply stay
you better off sweepin leaves on a windy day

(Jen)
So I don't care about the situation
I'ma ride for you
If there's a complication
Cuz everytime you had my back and all
When we were young
And now you're Joey Crack and all

(Jen)
Now my loyalty will always be
With you if you just promise me
That you'll stay real just like you are
Cuz baby you don't have to change because...

[chorus]
You dont know how much you mean to me
Whenever your down you know that you can lean on me
No matter the situation, boy I'm gon' hold you down

You dont know how much you mean to me
Whenever your down you know that you can lean on me
No matter the situation, girl I'm gon' hold you down

[chorus]
You dont know how much you mean to me
Whenever your down you know that you can lean on me
No matter the situation, I'm gon' hold you down

You dont know how much you mean to me
Whenever your down you know that you can lean on me
No matter the situation, 'Im gon' hold you down


"Tentang Dia"
melly & evan

Sehitam langit di angkasa
Yang mendung memurungkan bumi
Takutku ke masa yang lalu
Menorehkan luka dalam hati


Kekasih yakini cintaku
Disinilah cintaku berlabuh
Perjalanan mencari jawaban
Berakhir karam dihatimu

Cerita cinta anak remaja
Menggauli kidung kasih
Punahkah takut dihati
Terkutuklah bila kita berpisah
Slamanya harus bersama
Buktikan kita bahagia

Tentang dia tak perlu kau risau
Lagu cinta hanya untuk kita
Dan kini tidur ku tersenyum
Oh gadis aku cinta padamu

Tentang dia jangan pernah terlupa
Biar menjadi cerita
Di balik cerita kita

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

Akademi fantasia 3 dah tinggal 11 pelajar


Huhuhu..tinggal 11 pelajar..good bye IDAYU!!

Rasa cam unfair jer budk idayu nie kuar..=( aper tak nyer suaranya bagus tau..bagi aku she has powerful voice huhuhu!! But what to say ek.... dah terkeluar tetaplah keluar! Iye dak....cuma satulah..tak semestinye bile idayu tu dah kuar die kalah..that's statement not right tau...pandai-pandai jer cakap camtu... dengar gossip idayu kuar sebab konterversi antara dia, reza n amylea..ntahlah..sumer tu atas kuasa vote semua orang jugak..Ahakss~
So these songs will be perform by them pada minggu ke-lima nanti..


1. AIDIL- Senyuman Ragamu (Gerhana Ska Cinta)
2. AMY - Antara Anyir dan Jakarta (Sheila Majid)
3. AMYLEA - Hakmilik Kekal (Linda & Diana Rafar)
4. AKMA - Camar Yang Pulang (Aishah)
5. EKIN - Let's Get Loud (J-Lo)
6. FELIX - Hari Ini Dan Semalam (J.Mizan)
7. KEFLI - Berhenti Berharap (Sheila On 7)
8. MARSHA - Bossanova (Saloma)
9. MAWI - Beautiful Maria (Los Lobos)
10.REZA - Alah Emak Kahwinkan Aku (Zainorin Mat Dom)
11.YAZER - Takdir Penentu Segala (Jamal Abdillah)

Anyway..good luckss guys!! Takutlah ekekeke... who's the next will excluded from this concert? Well just wait and see key..huhuhu..=)

Monday, June 27, 2005


Salah satu posing Mawi dalam konsert AF3 ke-empat yang tetap mendapat undian yang tertinggi

Friday, June 24, 2005

Back Sweet Home??

Hari ni akak aku dari Shah Alam balik umah dgn her husband n daugthers (sara n uya) Syoknye!!

Green Day - Boulevard of Broken Dreams lyrics


I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone
I walk alone I walk alone I walk alone I walk a...

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everythings all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive And I walk alone
I walk alone I walk alone I walk alone I walk a...

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah
I walk alone, I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a..

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I walk alone!


Well, this song is from Green Day.. yeah.. lately nie aku asyik pasang lagu nie jerk kat my Mp3.

~This telenovela..huh..i don't know lah.. what's so interesting becoz u know my sayang tak miss..huhu..aku pun samer!! Ahaks..~

Thursday, June 23, 2005

Macam-Macam Ada....

First things aku nak ucapkan HAPPY BIRTHDAY sweet 21 pd Shikin my closed fren masa kat Sek Men Tengku Afzan, Kuantan dulu. Sori la my fren..aku takde hadiah la nak poskan kat ko...jgn mare yer, nanti kena jual...hehehe!! Okieslah..sekarang nie aku suka bangat ngan lagu Melly Goslow 'Lelaki Idaman'.. aku siarkanlah lirik lagu tu ek...
Lelaki Idaman
oh tak pernah kuduga
hidup ini menjadi berubah
cahaya gemerlap di sini
sinari setiap langkahku

oh semenjak denganmu
semua gundah menjadi berubah
yang tinggal semua tentang cinta
kembali tumbuh di hati

di hatiku hanya ada kamu sayang
di mimpi malamku ada kamu sayang
semua ini hanyalah untukmu sayang
sebuah lagu tercipta hanyalah untukmu

reff2: oh lelaki idaman
memang kamu tak ada yg lain
semua gambaran idola
segalanya ada padamu

oh semenjak denganmu
semua gundah menjadi berubah
yang tinggal semua tentang cinta
kembali tumbuh di hati

oh aku bahagia
ada engkau lelakiku

di hatiku hanya ada kamu sayang
mimpi malamku ada kamu sayang
semua ini hanyalah untukmu sayang
sebuah lagu tercipta hanyalah untukmu
oh asmara

di hatiku hanya ada kamu sayang
di mimpi malamku ada kamu sayang
semua ini hanyalah untukmu sayang
sebuah lagu tercipta hanyalah untukmu

repeat reff2
Ape macam lagu nie? ermm.. lelaki idaman? My 'Mr Right' dah ade depan mata aku skrang nie. Well, seriously aku memang suka kt die sorang nie. Tp ape-apepun skrang ni..in our mind 'study comes first'!! That's it, huhuhu.. we preferred to make our relationship become more stable before both of us decide jump to 'another stage'. Actually the reasons why i still 'steady' with him coz' he is really committed with his study and future..He's so understanding me even u know..aku nie degil sgt pastu sensitif..biasalah kadang-kadang tu, aku nie cepat makan dalam sikit..tp aku cepat cool beb. Anyway, thanks my dear..Sayang bangat sama kamu!!

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

SaNJiVaNi ~ Medical Boon

Aku peliklah..telacast drama nie dah berkurun lamanyer...daripada Sanjivani 1 sampailah la nie...Sanjivani 3 Semakin lama semakin menjadi-jadilah konflik dalam drama ni. But you know yang paling aku tabik sekali my mom lah.. :-) never miss this telacast...fuhh!! Caya laa mak.... Tapi yang kelakar tu, aku pun diheret samer oleh mak aku nie, biaselah kalau takde teman tak syok nak tengok..Aku pun pasrah lah..hehehe..merelakan diri! One thing, hero and heroin drama nie boleh tahan hansem n cun bangat..sweet gitu! Well.. if want to know this story is about the dilemmas of doctors, their hopes, their aspirations, their interpersonal relationships, the effects, demands and influences made by their profession on their personal life, how their experiences enrich their lives and help them evolve as human beings are reflected and highlighted with the hospital as the backdrop..

Dah demam?

Well..ye ker dah demam..apsal? AF3 is coming now ker... Ntahlah aku nak cakap..nak kata tak demam tu...lately nie ari sabtu jer tercongok aku depan astro ria tu...hah!! Ape nak jawab?? Tau xpekan..Kalau nak tau..aku nie bukanlah salah sorang daripada kumpulan 'tsumawi'...mintak maaplah ek..tapi aku respek lah kt die sbb paling manyak sekali fans..minggu lepas seday jugak fuad kuar...yelah..memanglah die tu nampak manje tp boleh tahan jgk die nyer vocal..Maybe dunia realiti lebih memerlukan die kut...aku doakan. Bagi aku AF3 kali nie masing-masing ade kelebihan tersendiri. So..depends lah nak vote sape-sape pun. Frankly speaking..aku tak heran!! By the way, aku adelah jgk buat assignment bout' all the songs that will perform by them..Hehehe..ini lagu yang dieorang untuk minggu ke-empat!

* AIDIL - Suratan Atau Kebetulan (Kenny, Remy, Martin)
* FELIX - Aku Semut Merah (Meggy Z)
* KEFLI - Seksa (Ukays)
* MAWI - Nou'r El Ain (Amr Diab)
* REZA - Senandung Semalam (Jamal Abdillah)
* YAZER - Nyanyian Serambi (Ramli Sarip)
* AMY - Bilang Saja (Agnes Monica)
* AMYLEA - Don't Know Why (Norah Jones)
* AKMA - L.O.V.E (Nat King Cole nyanyian semula oleh Natalie Cole)
* EKIN - Antara Dua (Farah AF2)
* IDAYU - Tiada Lagi Tangisan (Misha Omar nyanyian semula oleh Aishah)
* MARSHA - Tunggu Sekejap (Allahyarham Tan Sri P.Ramlee nyanyian semula oleh Jaclyn Victor)

Anyway,aku tak sabarlah nak tengok konsert mereka yang ke-empat nie.U know..i loves some of that songs...opss..tapi..sape plak yang akan ter'keluar'..hah!! hah!! Tak tau.....
aloha..my niece Noor Hannah..well..well..actually, this baby anak sedare kite yang ketiga =)
ape yang menarik ialah nama die nak dekat dgn name kite..seronottt!!


~It Might Be You~ frankly speaking.. i never miss this drama..so touch.. this link will get u to know bout this story..but saper yang nak tau da ending story aje yang boleh tgk tau! :-) www.xanga.com/imby

My First Time..

Assalamualaikum....salam permulaan ...=)
well i'm really glad coz...finally i got my own blog today..Kekadang biler aku baca blog orang lain...best jer rasa so aku nekad nak buat jugak lah..Sememangnye aku nie suka menulis. Maybe blog ni boleh menjadi e-diary aku kan..Tp..ape-apepun aku rasa gumbira sgt!! O.K.I.E.S....