Well, it has been a while isn't it? I've missed my blog too much. Seriously. Well, everything's fine right now. Totally fine. My life has been busy lately..am busy with my final exam rite now.. actually there are 3 more paper tht i have to sit. My paper bio..;-) i dunno how to describe it, but i hope i already have gave my best!! to suppress it ehmm.. maybe quite personal things.. should i hide it?? I know sum might says that am too much into personal stuff..haha.. but it never bothers me either.. becos this is my place where i brag about anything... or everything (errr am i that mindless to chew out everything here??.. huhuuu certainly only things tht i feel not soo confidential =P) but Yeah here is the place where it is more of like a dump side... Ermm it is here... where i share my heart feels as much as my plain thoughts.. ahaaa should i emphasize here it is my thoughts about my soo-personal life.. all i know is just to be myself here.. sorry for tht.. no offense ok.. I fell lonely even am being in a crowd..in a middle of riuh2 rumates..but am still lonely... why huh?? hmm. everything cross in my mind now not really caught my attention. Maybe i've missed my family too much...maybe i've not totally ready to confront that am not with him for next semester..not ready to let him alone here.. perhaps i guess..There's sumting missing here..i just dunno to reconize it..okies.. i will continue later..peace!! ;-)

i'm back!!!
before this..
too lazy to write down things
even tooo lazy to read others..
but
suddenly..
i'm full!
yeay!

this semester really killing me..
each class dem bored!
whut's going on??
why i'm the lucky one to get really bored lecturer?
huh..i dunno....@_@

some more..i didnt tell about my gathering rite.. well, it was fantastic time that i've ever had..*wink*
even there were only 5 people where as everyone brought their boyfriend?? hehehe...but somehow we really enjoyed our time!!
hurm..dunno how to describe in proper situation hehehe..any how i actually really worried bout him(my syg) because he never met them all..
so curious when suddenly he told me that he wants to accompanied me..wah!! (^_^) then i gave him a big smile..yay!!
well, thanks dear.. u did a good job..hehehe...
i shall leave this for u there.. wink!!

Each day I live..
I want to be a day to give
The best of me I'm only one but not alone..
My finest day is yet unknown I broke my heart..
Fought every gain..
To taste the sweet..
I face the pain..
I rise and fall..
Yet through it all this much remains

To Allah i pray..

Grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change things I cannot accept,
And the wisdom to hide the bodies
of those people I had to wipe out today
because they ticked me off.

And i beg for Allah help me
to be careful of the toes I step
on today as they may be connected
to the butt that I might have to kiss tomorrow...

P/s: last but not least.. some photo in dat gathering day (^_^) *grin*

Hurmm just wanted to share this saying from mum.. =)
"Compromise is a necessary part of life.. Be sincere with urself..."
I was thinking how much important "kejujuran" in life.. It is no denial dlm hidup nih mmg perlukan kejujuran.. But it seem lately people even dare to tag price on thing such as sincerity.. honesty.. WELL.. how much one pay for the price of "jujur" actually huh??.. for me.. Too bad when it has a price.. when people could pay for it... It seems like one were putting themselve in a bargain..and definitely will lost... Personally..i have a very low respect to people who acting tht way... Tp kadang2 sebab terlalu jujur org kate kite nih betul bendul pulak.. org pijak kepala kite.. Itupun susah jugak.. Nowadays i feel like there are more of backstabbers and liars untill sumtimes i dunno who is my fren who is not.. who is sincere and who only tell lies.. well am not pointing this to anyone.. it just how my thought raving out tonite..OK guys.. i shall be sleeping now.. " The busy have no time for tears. " Hurm..Perhaps this is all true... No time for tears.. =)
I'm going to meet my old frends..eii..sooo happy...(^_^)

Holla.. so long time i'm not en3 this blog, i really tired laa.. why?? eveything must done on time.. the problem is there's so much thing to do!! Sumtimes i felt to collape (^_^)
Last week i went to klang with him and my others ETR group ira, wan, jah and ain. Well, actually we had planned went on Saturday morning but last minute we changed our planned, going on that Friday.
So sad to say that we only got 4 tickets, so finally i and him decided went to temerloh by a cab to catch their bus coz luckily that bus actually stopped at temerloh to get down the passenger ;-P
We then arrived at pekeliling at 11.10pm, we stayed at ira's in cheras. The next day, we're going to Pandamaran by car..hmm he drove ;-P So until began our busy time..
met abg yus there helped us to make sum reseached on ETR subject. We will going to build a public swimming pool. So that's why we took Pandamaran's swimming centre as our guidelines.
After that, we're going to KL to find clothes for ETR presentation, hangging around Jalan TAR.. me and him well.. took this chance spent time together hehehe.. hurm we performed our Maghrib prayer at KLCC Mosque. Then we separated to own destination, me and him took komuter Pel Klang. We back to jengka on sunday.. So this weekend we spend our time only around jengka. Mayb going to pasar malam depends on our two situation first.. hurm dunno yet!! What is the most important.. tonite i have to complete all my work if necessary i will stay up. Chow laa..

These previous days.. i'm very2 busy..settle down t-shirt..ETR programme.. and my tests!! Okielaaa..last Saturday i was meeting yati, it's so happy to say that we spent time shopping gal's stuff ouchh..hehehe..then he asked me..what am bought..where..and sum more question. He was going to klang at abg yus's place searched around for our ETR project. Hmm.. and we have to go klang again by this saturday..in my mind now money..money!!(^_^) This morning i felt terrible on my chemist test..hopes that my marks not gonna be zero..fuhh..i dunnolaa. So okaylaa.

I'm back again in jengka. I'm very sleepy now, my eyes are like half shut. Waiting for my next class which will be at 12pm..argghhh.. am looking my watch now..10.35 my god!! I'm very hungry too.. :-( i'm craving for cheezy wedges. Uuuuu... XD Ok @_@ whre to get haaa.. i really envy with him this moment, he just can back to his room while am here in library sitting in front this pc with very cooly condition yay!! Well.. it's just nice coz i'm sitting on a comfort seat which makes me feel to sleep as well. Actually i feel to go to toilet but...malas seh!! (the pc are so limited so i'm lucky to got one;-P) so there's no chance for me to go anywhere..ouh!! His college is very short way from here.. like i always says with him "u should be happy and thankful coz it's just only 5 min to come class.." whereas me?? so pity of me.. So now we got class 8-9 am and he just dissapeared eventually. Then i got his sms " syg, i really need to go to toilet..so u take care of yr own time..go eat..lepak library and meet u in next class;-) mmuah!".. guess what?? That's only one reason i wondered.. he's now on his bed and really tide of sleepness..okieslaa.. i stop here.. many things to do..c'yaa...

@ kalau tak nak balik boleh tak?? hehehe...
@ malas seh!!
@ hurm.. yet i dont start packing my things!!
@ tomorrow going jengka..uwaaaa...:'(
@ well, i'm more lucky than abg kena naik bus dr jb ke ktn aisey manyak kecian wooo... kirenye @ aku parents antar ke ktn...lucky ker?? hmm...
@ but then i have to wait for him jgk sampai ke ktn huhuhu...it's not sound so badly, rite??
@ it's really2 holiday to me.. it's works!! why?? becos i've not done my assignment.. just hanging around... watching tv almost 24 hours without break any second.. opps i'm just kidding hehehe..
but totally i really really meant that.. so relax and enjoy all da time!!
@ ouhh.. this situation also happened to him.. where's yr 4.00 flat honey ;-)
@ okies.. i'm out of mood !! (^_^)
@ sumeone has breaking my heart....
@ i've missed him! jumpe esok my honey...

Haih... too many things came across lately.. it happen just in few glance.. Tapi ape2 pun me bersyukur sgt2 for am okay now.. Lepas satu satu menimpa.. Itulah lumrah hidup.. "Laut mane yg tak bergelora.. Hidup nih tak kan sunyi dr dugaan.." Tapi percaya dan yakin ade hikmah disebalik setiap sesuatu yg berlaku.. =)
In another way i realised tht am not that weak after all.. I didnt cry.. instead am acting rationally.. i tried to be strong @_@ i just wondering bout what happened to me.. please stop it!! Am thinking somewhat people might thought as the same way i do hopes so.Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there...to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be but you lock eyes with them, you know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound! way. And sometimes things happen to you at the time that may seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would never realize your potential, strength, will power or heart. Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of luck. Illness, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test limits of your soul. Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless. Only ALLAH knows the best!!
Am thinking of this few lines..
Allah didnt promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day,comfort for the tears, and light for the day. BE a TOUGH gal NANIE!!
*my thought's
nanie, sumone didnt mean anything plus sumone doesnt know somehow it actually broke your heart so badly.. just give your forgiveness..

Sumetimes i felt worried.. a lil' bit! we are really passionate about what we wanted to do with our lives, and would talk about how we'd be running our own business.. ohh soo scary!! Well, tonite i have to make last choice for my application in UPU. Please help me....! @_@

Happy midterm holiday guys...

Well, i am not going to perak. Tak jadi pun.. cancel ma..@_@ so now i'm at my home. Hurm by da way after this midterm i've got many things to sort out. I will settle my t-shirt business with him, so we'll going to Arau ;-) Actually i just arrived from kl. Sumtimes what we exact to plan cant be easily rite?? I've been through a hard time alone. I was consider myself that was just happened and it cant be fixed again. My Lord.. U the only one knows what was exactly happened. Let me be strong!! I'm a tough lady..Hurm..sum more?? I am really.. really miss him..:-* mmuah!! *wink*
p/s: i still remember..u've promised me wanna watch fearless..huhuhu..;-p
opss.. selamat menyambut awal muharam 1427 Hijrah...

Today is da day...

Today;
@ laundry stuff this early morning (^_^) yay me!! At 6.15 i've done my laundry huhuhu....
@ finished all my lab reports bio n chemist(abg: dah siap ke?) what's does it mean hurmm...wanna copy haaa!!!
@ went pasar malam with him
abg: teringin makan satelaa syg...jum dinner luar ek??
hurm.. every your wish always right haaa!!!

o.k.i.e.s

p/s: i enjoy my day today

Macam2 ada... @_@

I try to manage my time so completely..but sumtimes it really complicated.
me: am coming home this midterm perhaps 2-3 days mom...
mom: why so short one?
me: tons of work are waiting..plus he wants me accompany him to perak (",) (grin*)
mom: perak?? why perak?? what for??
me: settle down our business plus jalan-jalan hehehe...
mom: we all going melaka and u perak. What's plan is that
me: extra..my etr group laa...we all decide nk g survey perhaps in kl. Apiz laa our head nyer. U ask him laa mam
mom: anything u should discuss wif me...okay dear.

*my thought ~ ermm... macam-macam ada!!!

Getting worse or better guys??

Working in groups actually quite interesting me. It seems that full-time students here at my course are literally swimming in the course work. Stop moving and sink yourself. Group work is unavoidable. And for me, I have different people for different groups in different classes. Not a single person is in the same two groups as I am. U know working with our own lover it's quite different. Without me, these groups will be mutually exclusive in terms of members.This can be to a disadvantage since the rest of the group may not understand the workload you're already carrying. They may ask for your contribution without knowing that you're already up to your nose with other things.But it's not all bad. Most importantly I've managed to gain experiences from working with different people. There were moments of blazing debates and bruised egos. But there were moments when we learnt new stuff from each other and shared a couple of laughs.At the end of the day, we returned to same spot again, as friends and fellow learners, to fix ourselves a nice. We are united by our belief, friendship and our quest for knowledge and success. Working in groups actually soo interesting me plus grouping with him makes me more secure (^_^) daa!! nite.....

What's a day!!

Today the experiment of chemistry inorganic was so teribble!! Ahh...am really tired!! That's not da only things makes auwful but also my business project ETR. Every our suggestions were reject..so frust!! Every face looks so tired and want to give up. Hurm.. let it be!! We have to carry on guys!!! Please... that's not the end of life.... we should try the new one.... insyaAllah! About me?? I try to accept it..accept what?? yes..accept that thing! Sumting was burning my heart ;-( i felt depressed. But i need to accept it even though that's my life..my choice rite!!

In case I forget..

TQ to anyone of u..friends,

for the challenge u set..
for the thoughts u shares..
for the helps u lend..
for the times u spent..
haih.. to the ones tht wiped my tears..
tht gave me their kisses.. and huggiess
when am really need it..
for comforting and accompanying me..
really appreciatted..
am saying fr the bottom of my heart..
wondering myself where would i be today
without u guys..
maybe i'll stuck in the well still.. hahaaa.. =P
UkhwahFiLLaH!!!

Out of boredom!!

I’m just having my lunch. Hmm..my tummy full already hehehe. For some certain things I take a bit fussy with any meals. This is quite contrast with him. Basically if I didn’t finished my meals then his volunteer to done it. Hmm… sounds likes he never complain anything bout foods. (^-^) Well, I just borrowed a book which title is ‘The Other Side of The Story’. Anyway this story is really fabulous!! This 648 pages makes me stays at room neither going to somewhere place. How about pasar malam today nanie? ;-) Well.. I don’t think so! He also busy with his study and try to control our finance…
Am thinking bout this phrase…

‘There are three sides to every story.
Your side, their side, and the truth.

Thinking.. and thinking…and me face down in my soup, passed out with boredom!!

Selamat Hari Raya AidilAdha.. Seday plak bile teringat ayah sedang sorang2 kt Arafah. Achik plak kat hospital..Takpela, mereka sedang berjihad. Aku nak balik semula jengka semula..malas sey!! Relax jer nak ponteng kelas pagi, dah takde tiket kan..(",) abg pun relax jer setuju..aiyoo!!! Takpe aarr...pg jer kan ptg insyaAllah sempat. Harap2 abg dapat tiket pagi2. Okie, daaa...

My complicated story..

He's now at my place. We all arrived at 5.30 am and abah fetched us at R&R. This is a complicated story. Yesterday somewhat we had planned not exactly happened. We took a bus to kl at 6.30 pm...and as usually i always got my ticket to mersing by transional, but unlucky the ticket all sold out.
"Sorry adik, esok adelah tapi kul 11.30 mlm,"a sellerman said.
I totally worried and try looking my watch showed 11.25 pm. Ouchh...what's life...
me: Camne ni abg? Komuter sure dah xde nak balik umah akak, umah abg pun tak bleh. Syg kol dieorang key fetch syg kat pudu, and abg buy laa tiket jb sekarang.
abg: Tu ade ker mersing lagi tu, try tanye hurry syg!!
me: I never know bout this bus darling.(starring worried at him)
Then, suddenly he bought two tickets and went to platform so quickly. I dunno what actually played in his mind.. mad of me ke?? Our seat at the back 33 and 34. He didnt speak to me never a word!! I phoned my dad and tell him about my sayang accompanied me. Alhamdulillah, my parents so understanding. Thanks Allah. I try to speak with him but no respons at all. He pretend try to sleep. I just dont know what to do except be a silent. About 5 minutes later, he hold my hands and says his sorry. I know his feeling...
abg: sorry syg, takkan syg tak tau langsung pasal bus nie?
me: betul laa..never know
abg: okaylaa.. abah,mak ok tak?
me: dah settle, sampai abah suruh call.
We had a wonderful journey..hehehe *secret maa...
My parents took him jalan2 pantai air papan and whole mersing town. Wah.. second time he came here...dah berani call my mum, "mak"..what's that mean dear ;-) He will back JB this evening. His brother achik is warded in Hosp Sultanah Aminah, Johor Bharu. Hopes everything gonna be okay.Steady abg!!

Face it nanie!!

Today i got a msg from sumone that makes me 'blur' for a while..i'm thinking that is it actually i'm in reality now. A best friend try to sacrife for her lover. I know it might hard to face it but i know she is really strong person. I've no idea at this moment...my heart cannot describe a thing. Yet this problem is actually involves my sayang's life. Hmm..quite difficult to get thru the reality. But i still remind to my self.. i was in this situation last season. I knew she can as what i've been thru before. On my second thought, we cannot controll everything going perfect..but we must believe that the greater Allah knows everything the best for us. Hmm..some funny happened just now when one of my roomates Diana makes joking and she try making a quiz on some local food(kuih) hahaha...

Sweet memory..2006!!

New Year has comes at last! Such a good start for me to make life becomes more proper?? I wish!! So I already answered for some of my friends’ questioned “Nanie, what your wish for this new year?” well, carry forwardlaa last year punyer..hehehe! (“,) I was celebrated new year at kl with him. Outspoken actually we celebrated for our day..so coincidentally laa with new year. Thanks for the sweet greeting friends (ct nor dyana, nisa, nor aida, suraya, syazwani) :-) I was keep trying to reply sms to them on time but the coverage was soo busy..ahh tension maa!! “Esok pg try lagi..” he said. Hurm…;-( We all hang out at Star hill and KLCC..erm so okaylaa everything going soo perfect. Thanks honey..