I'm home =) hehehe.. i just back yesterday. Jiwa meronta-ronta nak balik. Nasib baik abg pun bg green light. Sajer nak lepas rindu kt mak abah iwan iya n sibing (my cat) pulak. Hurmm.. umah tak siap lagi.. lambatnye siap!! Ahhh so wonderful to be at home.. cossy.. ermm enjoying moment at home that is wat i always do.. Never get bored here.. Sorry to darling sbb this is yr turn plak tgal sorang2 kt sane, if u read this, i gonna miss u abg!:-)
Last weekend was really packed.. hari Sabtu 19 May, aku dgn abg join satu seminar keusahawanan kat Hotel Heritage, Ipoh. Well.. yang bestnye kpd abg,En. Abdul Hafidz Bin Kamaruddin.. ini adalah kali pertama die menjejakkan kaki ke bandar Ipoh..hmm, tapi tak sempat nak ronda2 sbb time's it's too limit. Seminar tu anjuran PNS start 9 am - 5 pm. Banyak jgk yang kami dapat sepanjang hari tu, berkaitan dgn industri francais. Okla..not bad jgk laa sbb free je seminar tu..makan pun not bad jgk ;-) hehehe.. mesti abg senyum lebar kalau bc nie.. teringat la memori kami di sana. Balik jer sampai kul 8.30pm..trus di dinner tapi cari tmpt baik punyer sbb nak tgk final konsert AF5. Ye laa.. abg skrg ni dh demm AF. Asyik2 citer pasal AF..hmm, layan jelaa. Jgn mare abg:-) wassup..wassup..line clear... hehehe!!
Hari Ahad pulak, kami gi Shah Alam tgk Sara and Uya ade Hari Sukaneka. Kelakar btul budak2 kecik nie..dua2 rumah sukan kuning..hehe..same laa dgn mak tih nie. Yg uncle apiz die nie asyik sakat2 dorang jer..jd camera man ye. Nanti ble post gmbr cni ;-p Sukan tu abis kul 12pm so trus gi institut baitumal teman abg ade pameran kerjaya..tp tak byk pun booth die. Jd, tak brape best laa.. abg ajak balik. Tp sbb perut lapar kami melantak cake indulgence kt Secret Recipe n KFC. Trus bli tiket balik mrsg..
Hurmm, xtau lagi brape lame kt cni. To my rumates (mariam+yatie) if u guys read my blog.. i wanna tell u guys..i've missed both of u!!! Tak tau laa skrg nie asyik teringat kat membe2 lamer...dr sek ren..men..uitm pilah..uitm jengka..n lastly shah alam.. to ika n asba.. rindunyee kt korang semua!! Nina, my old fren kt sek men tg afzan kuantan dulu..she's a nurse now!! wow.. dah nak tunang 23rd of June nie..so i wish u all da best..semoga majlis tu bjalan dgn lancar.. dont ask me plak bile..InsyaAllah kalau ade rezeki yang murah..
Anyway.. i wakes up everyday wit a wish that my present day would be better than yesterday.. As a saying 'Yesterday is a HISTORY.. Today is a PRESENT.. Tomorrow is a GIFT.. Sesungguhnya Allah tidak akan mengubah nasib sesuatu kaum melainkan kaum itu sendiri.. Jd, be yrself n always think positive way.

Hurmm.. i miss my home so much.. been 4 months away..since am cramp wif schedule.. cedihhhh.. tak pe laa.. sekali sekala made sum sacrifices.. save the best for last! nway gotta call fr mum n dad last evening... just keepin update of each other..i wanna go homeeee!!!

Whose's baby?? hehehe.. well last week i was going to sri muda, shah alam hmm steph's parents inlaw. So this is the first time i met her daughter, Jeziel 3 months alrealy..:-) so sweet..she's being so nice!! Cute!! Steph now being a mummy!! yay!! (^_^) well that's not a big deal being 23 years old and got a child.. i wish too..huhu!! A lot of exprience that we shared from them hehe.. honey, u've got listened from josh rite? ;-) hehehe.. So steph.. be a good mother yaa!! I've missed our time together. Hopefully there's a chance for us to meet again..
Okey.. for this entry..for better for worst... this is what am goin to say.. after years.. been keeping it for years then only now i realised of how much important one for me.... But sum people says.. "If luv the bird, let it fly... and so i will let it fly as it wish.."the future is yet is unknown.. and am so afraid to know that i would lost it..so it is better if i let it fly.. because i believe if it is mine it will always be mine..Let time tells it stories..

I do swear that I'll always be there.
I'd give anything and everything
and I will always care.
Through weakness and strength,
happiness and sorrow,
for better, for worse, I will love you

always.. becos once i open my heart i wont close it..
but too bad i never let him to discover about tht..
am too scared.. am afraid of rejection.. am afraid of being misinterpret..
maybe it is best if i keep it away.. but i wont deny it with my heart.
Take care honey!!

Sudah lame tidak memanjakan jari tangan ni menitipkan sesuatu di sini. Kemalasan menguasai diri sejak akhir-akhir ini. Walaupun peluang sentiasa di depan mata sekarang namun masih malas untuk menulis. Nak di katakan tiada cerita..hmm banyak sangat bersarang di kepala.. cuma tak tau nak mulakan mcmmane kan..
I'm home..pelik ker? tak sebenarnye hanya ingin merehatkan diri..diri yang terlalu penat..selain itu, kononnye untuk mencari idea untuk urusan perniagaan nanie dan abg. hmm.. mungkin dapat selesailah perjuangan kami ini secepat yang boleh. Jauh betul perjalanan kami nie daripada bidang sains tibe2 menjinakkan diri ke bidang perniagaan. Tapi rasenye semua orang tau bidang perniagaan lebih banyak menjana pendapatan. Tapi tidaklah kami sia-siakan ape yang kami pelajari, kami tetap akan bekerja di dalam bidang sains..cuma perniagaan nie sbg sampingan sahaja. Hmm.. rumah masih lagi dalam pembinaan sudah 50% siap.. tak sabrnye nak pindah rumah baru hehehe..
Okielaa..chow dulu..tak tau nak tulis ape lagi.

I just come back to normal life.. yeah..i mean am now at kl and waiting for the next step. So..okie..i dont have any good story to tell here.. but i will going watching movie..perhaps.. hehehe..ghost rider??

I'm bloody bored now.. sitting in front of this pc almost 3 hours now and i just dont have proper mood to entry here. But i'm thinking.. i should do something. Abg still be a baby sitter of three kids out there ;-) i dont have an idea how sweet he is..huhuhu.. carry out the responsibilities like now..hopes he will be "ayah mithali" one day..Amin! :-) cant hardly wait to see him next week.
Oh ya.. my housemate, Mariam smsed me last nite and she told me she's already resign that job. In particular way, i think she's now choose the right option because i officially doesnt like her job (i dont want to tell what job she's joined before but it's sound like in investment field).. one of the reasons, she's probably more suitable to choose the job that yati had offered her once. Whatever is, hopefully she knows what is the best for herself.
As usual..after i woke up this morning, had my breakfast..abah bought me mihun goreng then finished the laundry stuff..started prepared for lunch..picked iwan at his school.hmm, now everything had changed, i mean the town so trafic..busy..soo iwan keeps his eyes more than myself when i'm driving..*wink ;-p u know like..

iwan: weh uni(called me 'uni' means 'sis'..slowlaa sket..banyak keta nie..
me: shut up!!

This thing always happened..;-| plez dont blame me if i drive fast because of i used to have that with my dad and my big bro..well they like to speed all the times..hahaha ;-) Someone asked me,"Apiz (my syg) drive laju tak?" hehehe..hmm, i just smiled. Well..he sometimes did the same also ;-P
Okie..i continue later..bye!

Hi guys.. today 14th February.. hmm guess what?? people says today is "love day".. Valentine Day.. Hmm but guys, i used to never for celebrating this stuff..so sorry to say this ya.. anyway, and alhamdulillah my syg (abg) do as same as my thought ;-) there's nothing to celebrate this Valentine.. and as a Muslim, i think everybody knows already rite..but it's depends on your own thoughts.. But to me, there are a lot's of another options for u to show your love.. hehehe but not in this Valentine :-P Sorry guys...(^_^)

"It might sound too good to be true, but things don't have to be hard in order to be worthwhile..." Yaa I wish so.. but things never stumble on ur feet that easy.. i've found this from one of my frens. I'm now at sweet home mersing.. yaa i dont know what to tell u but i'm happy with what i'm taking now. Anyway.. yesterday i met my old fren, uyul..we both in da same bus, hmm it's been almost 4 years we not keep in touch.. hahaha..cam adegan 'jejak kasih' plak smlm:-) abg sempat luangkan masa temankan nanie di pudu smlm..well recently we both not always meet as before because right now we have our own work and those things need to be settled in different ways. So insyaAllah after this Chinese New Year, everything will be normal again..rite honey..
Now the clock keeps ticking.. it is 2 in the morning.. and i cant help myself to lay down..mayb i got slept too much this afternoon. I'm looking back..and thinking of what i did before..what i did right..what i did wrong to myself..looking back and fwd.. try to search w'ther i had missing sumthing.. Ooouuhhh.. i keep on baring my head this lately with sumthing... try to make it.. and am trying to be as wise as i can..i dunno w'thr i deserve sumthing good in life.. but i believe tht Allah would always heard to our prayers... So all i need is to be strong and stand still.. regardless of what people would say.. all i want now (and it is for sure) is at least not to let them down... Seeing dad and mum smiling..
I want to share a lil' bit about my work experience being a sales woman. Hmm, it's quite tough u know when we just to start to promote the things we sell then people just ignored u and said " No! Thanks!" hurm.. at that time, i've no idea to express my feelings..That's not only that.. many new things that i've learned. How to communicate with all folks of people from makcik cleaner to CEO..from stall to 5 star restaurant..from a malay to a korean people.. from a kid to pakcik-80 years old.. therefore, i have to use different words to different people. Actually so far, these experiences already polished my commucation skills and also teached me how to interact with these people and it's working u know..hehehe. And one more when i got a chance to be a clinic nurse..The reason why i quit coz they didnt give me time to pray and even rest..so that i quit that job. After the last day i worked there, i've phoned abg and told him everything.. i didnt given any rest..cant pray neither..got bully with two staff there..So the conclusion we made up..just quit. Hmm.. at least i more familiar with a few names of drugs(ubat)..and also the price of every treatments ..huhu ;-p Okie.. honey, hopes u fine there..miss u like crazy.. So i guess till here..daa!!

Hahaha..so long time i've not been here.. macam2 yang telah berlaku tau.
nak citer all rasenye cam xcukup masa coz now i'm at cc. To tell u bout work experience so far it's not easy thing, but must have a gut to face it!! WORK.. WORKPLACE.. hmm it's hard for me even though it's takes a lil' bit time but naturally can makes me feels how lucky me then..jd sales woman.. jd nurse kat clinic hehehe.. very funny at times but i got a lot of experience.. the precious..the value ones..
Maybe abg and me will running bigger business in few coming months, so these experiences actually courage me to be more talented and optimistic. Ok..

Abg and me just went to lake titiwangsa and supposed everybody came to watch Eye on Malaysia which is located strategically at the edge on Titiwangsa Lake, Kuala Lumpur. It’s very similar to London Eye and has been unveiled in conjunction with Visit Malaysia Year 2007 on January 6, 2007 by Malaysian Prime Minister, Datuk Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi. Hurm..we both taken sum photo together that nite. The bloody ferris wheel not look like a real eye on Malaysia..it's seem to be just an eye on Titiwangsa..:-) i dont know laa.. so many people getting there!! that crowd of people almost made me impatient but as we reached there and spent a lil' bit time together it's became lovely.. sitting together beside the lake and staring the bloody ferris wheel hehehe..(^_^)

Sorry it's quite a long time am not blogging here.. actually last Saturday, abg got an accident. But alhamdulillah..it's not really bad. Abg cuma ade luka2 kt kaki kanan dan tangan kiri. Tapi kaki tu tak bleh nak bengkok so kena urut sbb bengkak. So rite now, he's getting to resign his work soon. Pasal sambung study hopes there's a chance for him..ini semua rezeki masing2kan..ok laa semoga honey cepat sembuh!

Thank God,Almighty am still alive.. we just waive a goodbye to 2006. How u feel that? Happy? Sad? humm, i felt nothing, the best word can i phrased my feeling "neutral".. neither happy nor sad. When i looking back there's a lot of bad things went to my life whether thin or thick it suffered me. There's also a lot of good things went to my life which makes me always laughed at times. Too much memories. I've learned more about myself..more determine of what actually i seeking in my life.At least i feel grateful of what i attain now..i can stand to make sure my down feeling become normal back..i can afford it. Never say 'am not good enough'..i hate this phrase!! I know that currently i still keep on maintaining my quality of life..my life path.Everyone know am a big gal now..not a kid anymore. So that i have to make a decision which can bring me in a good space someday. Like mom said, "life must goes on..the light is still on and the show still run... and this coming year of cos would promise a lot more excitement..all u have to do now..just prays" So i guess i should put more effort..to gain more. Yesterday, i spent time with abg, of course because he was off day. We went to klcc and midvalley to study the worklife, to see people work..to count on how much they need to hiring people in different fields. Okie, every day might not be good.. But there's sumthing gud in every day..=P

Our special day celebration is today :-)

Our 4th Anniversary..
Hopes that our loves never fade and always be colourful..
Amin.

There's no time to us to spend much time to go out but it just be enough to say we really enjoyed of what we've done today (^_^) even just a lil' bit moment (honey have to go work)but i cant forget it..i never forget it ;-)
This time..previous days, we struggled to make things to be clear..with all messy things..all i can say that i cant stand alone well if he's not around me..i cant live anymore without my wonderful parents and siblings..they gave me inspiration to face the messy things..Thanks everyone who walks in my life.

Bad news.. segamat gosh!!! bad flooded ;-( my kampung.. yang paling cian skali umah maksu. Teruk giler kena..even double storey but it's really scary!! dah paras dada..double storey dalam umah dah paras dada.. Ya Allah kami dapat news tu subuh2 semalam itupun makutih yang kol mommy 5.30 am. Mommy said, we all got nice slept but our kazen dah macam titanic kt sana. Unpredictable... tak penah banjir camni berlaku so everyone just speechless..
So today.. my abah ajak we all gi segamat u know abah anak sulong so his responsibility tu more laa die rasa..
okie.. hopefully nothing worst happened..got to go..bubbye!

*** my honey still working at klang..i'll meet u maybe on 25th key..

It’s been awhile.
a lot of things come and go, mostly feelings.
right about now these feelings are floating in my head as light as those fluffy feathers after a pillow fight.
there’s too many tunes playing in my mind as i tried to converse with the alter ego beside me and kick some sense into it,
but at the end of the day, i’d tell myself all over again,
the sick sad ending that you’ve thought you’ll have,
there’ll somehow be a silver lining on the road that takes time to reach.
enjoy life as positively as you can however the various format it’ll come.
most overused phrase in this small head of mine.
It’s already a few days till 2006 ends.
anyways,
as usual, i’m just thankful im still breathing and i have more that what i expected early in the year.

happy 2007!
Okie
nanie@peace

If you have LEFT ur DREAMs behind,
If HOPE is LOST, and If U NO Longer look AHEAD,
If ur AMBITIOUS fires are DEAD,
Then you are Old

But if FROM Life u take the BEST
And if IN Life u take the JEST
If LOVE u HOLD
No matter how the years go by,
No matter how birthdays fly,
YOU ARE NOT OLD!!..

That passage which I happened to come across put all clearly about AGE. A physical beauty remains in younger age, but as the years goes by we became older and yet the beauty is NO Longer remain. The Physical beauty is like a bottle of Coke. It turns stale with times. but Mind is like a bottle of Wine, the longer it been kept, the better it becomes.
And for me, I might ignore about AGE and just wanna concentrates on setting out OBJECTIVES and PLANNING of things to work out. It might takes sometimes, it might takes a long path, never mind as long as I can reach the top of the hills. If this is a test and it is my destiny, I never feeling despair of wat ever God gave me. It just because GOD wanna give sum reward and so I need to be more patient and I wont push myself into rush or else i might ended life in the detriment. I want to find my happiness.....(^_^)

Last thursday nite we all watched cinta movie..smgt giler nak tgk.Abis jer abg keja rabu tu kiteorg ke leisure damansara..tapi sia2 jer sbb rupe2 kt situ xde tayangan
movie cinta hehe kecian kami..rupe2nye tayangan perdana jer buat ctu. Then we changed to plan B..next day we watched at JJ Bukit Raja at midnite.

It is quite a simple movie, themed on 'LOVE', and hence the title CINTA (Malay translation of LOVE.. well, at least one of the few words to describe 'love' ..)


"Age does not diminish one's capacity for love or need for companionship. The marching of time has not been kind to Elyas (Dato’ Rahim Razali), a retired schoolteacher. But despite illness and age, Rubiah (Fatimah Abu Bakar), a compassionate and kind woman sees Elyas's dignity and spirit shining through. Can you recognise the face of it, even if you have no memory of it? Does love have to end in your advancing years?"


"Love really does happen when you least expect it. An unexpected meeting leads to an unexpected depth of feeling for Azlan (Eizlan Yusuff), a wealthy, eligible bachelor who runs a publishing empire. He meets Azura (Fasha Sandha), a strong and independant if opinionated book store assistant and romantically pursues Azura. But when she falls for him, is this girl from a simple background finally good enough for him?"


"Dyan (Nanu Baharudin) is a rich, successful architect but unlucky in love. Trapped in a love triangle, Dyan is protective of her younger brother Dhani (Que Haidar), a struggling artist who seems to lack ambition. Frustrated that her brother is wasting his talents, Dyan urges him to change his life. What sacrifices are you willing to make for the one you love?"


"Ignorance is bliss. Harris (Rashidi Ishak) who has built a thriving architect's firm with Dyan, seems to have it all- a beautiful wife Airin (Rita Rudaini), a beautiful daughter, a beautiful life. Until he wakes up one day to find out that his perfect life is but an illusion. Does he fight for her to stay, or does true love mean letting go of the one you love the most?"


"Arianna (Sharifah Amani) is a young girl who is literally looking for love in the wrong places in the city with the help of a kind stranger, Taufiq (Pierre Andre), a young journalist with a struggling tabloid. By depending on the kindness of strangers, does Arianna find the love that she desperately seeks or does she finally sees the one that truly loves her?"

Overall..okayla. Abg said this story just a plain movie..
I asked him what he got..what's da moral of da story.. he said, love need patience.. love need communication.. and then i continued him.. love need trust.. love need each other to be understand every part of life.. then he gave me a big meaning smiled..

I'm back.. rindu...i miss blogging!!! Byk yang dah berlaku... i still teman abg di shah alam.. he's work while am doing our tshirt business...do some new designs. To face obstacles need a brave spiritual.. motivation.. need patience.. sacrifices..
I wakes up everyday wit a wish that my present day would be better than yesterday.. As a saying 'Yesterday is a HISTORY.. Today is a PRESENT.. Tomorrow is a GIFT..' Ouchh.. Im really in a bad time.. suffering fr a terrible backache lateLy.. maybe due to the hectic hours i had.. lacking of rest time.. Maybe sum people might see im smiling thou they never knew wats the burden inside me.. Yeah..of cos i still could laugh a lot.. still being a cerry-merry-gal like before.. Hah but my Life isnt so easy as wat they see.. it is like a gold fish in the aquarium.. it looks happily swimming (and they even popped smily face when i fed them..) Actually wat people see never resemble wat exactly my Life is.. though i never regret for being myself.. a deep thankfulness wish to GOD.. for all the precious moment i had along my life so that i could be who i am today..
As i would select apart of the Joey Mcintyre's song which also was my fav song before....

I think that you could be Whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize All the dreams you have inside
Don't be afraid If you got something to say
Just open up your heart And let it show the way
Don't you ever wish You were someone else
You were meant to be The way you are exactly
Don't you ever say You don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself You're better off by far
And I hope you always stay the same Cuz there's nothing about you I would change
Believe in yourself Reach down inside
The love you find Will set you free
Believe in yourself You will come alive
Have faith in what you do You'll make it through

"When you learn to love yourself You're better off by far.." Yeah, no one would ever hurt themself..and i suppose to believe in myself..to have faith in mylife.. that's wat i should.. and May god show me the rigthous path along the way of my journey towards and only creator Allah swt.. -Amin-

P/s: I've already watched Cinta and Cicakman with him (^_^) so i'll tell here later..

Today all my family getting here Shah Alam.. school holidays..but not me!! am still have one paper this sunday!!! Ouchh...:-( kecian btul.. tp i still can join them jalan2 kl hehehe..(^_^)
Am not telling u that i actually really really ready to sit this paper so that's why am getting worried.. padan muka!!! Tonite plak we all nak tgk teater kt Istana Budaya.. theater musical Pi Mai Pi Mai Tang Tu.. ni sumer sbb my aunty works there..so dapat slalu tiket free. Ingat nak ajak abg (my syg) skali join.. he's now pun tgh lepak kl..tp we only get 6 seats.. probably next time i'll ask him. Citer pasal abg.. hmm abg dah merdeka skrg.. and doa byk2 supaya abg dapt sambung ******** in shah alam with me..Amin!!
Paper yg akn diambil Ahad nie paper Quality & Assurance in Food Tech. So i'll stay up tonite nampaknyer.. This morning we all gi Seramic World kt Selayang..hmm overall not bad laa.. tercapailah hasrat abah tadi..sbb dah lamer sgt mengidam nak ke sana almaklumlah..rumah baru kiteorang akn dibina just in two weeks huhuhu..tak sabarnyeee..
After paper nie on 26th.. maybe i trus balik mersing.. tapi abg ajak keja samer2 kt klang. Well we not have well confem yet..under discussion. Next time i'll will post here our photo motor cycle hehehe..okie..selamat bercuti semua!!!!

8/11/2006
Today I have got my human and food nutrition paper.. so far it was killing me!! killer paper subject u know!! Hmm.. so teribble :-( abg hantar and picked me back by motorcycle. Nampak muka abg jer after abis paper tu..rasa lega skit. Abg datang Shah Alam and temankan aku di sini sampai next paper die on 23rd of Nov.

9/11/2006-14/11/2006
Spared time with him around Shah Alam,Klang, and K.Lumpur.. biaselaa.. makan2..jalan2.. tapi yang tak dapat dilupekan mase kt KLCC.. my favorite brooch terhilang (^_^) seday sangat!! ;'( tapi nak buat camane kan...

15/11/2006
I stay at my sis place now..kena jaga budak 2 org tu sara and uya sbb akak ade dinner funtion tonite..
i've missed him..(=_=)